So I want to break up with my boyfriend, but it seems like every time I get the nerve to start doing it something crappy happens. 1st it was me getting laid off possible, then a pay cut, now nothing is really happening to my job, but the company could go bell up. Then his mom goes into the hospital. Then his mom and sister say I'm part of the family. Now granted that last one is because I'm the best friend to their son/brother respectively. I know there is no magical perfect moment to break up with someone, but come on. I break up with him when I'm getting laid off then I look like I'm doing it because the money is bad. I break up with him when his mom is in the hospital and I'm a major asshole. I break up with him today (which is our anniversary) and well yeah more asshole. I have feelings for him, but more like feelings for a friend. He asked me if I was with him because I love him or because I felt sorry for him. Well it's become obvious now more than ever that well I'm with him because I feel sorry for him. He flat out told his sister that he's here because of me. He was thinking about committing suicide if it wasn't for me. How the hell do you walk away from someone who tells you that? I mean I can't stay with him because of that. Just means I'll fester and slowly grow to resent him. When did my life become a clique gay movie?
I've said it time and time again. A good kiss can make or break sex for me. The same goes for porn. Now there are scenes where I understand the actors can't kiss and I like those scenes for something different. A kiss can tell you a lot about how a guy is going to be in bed (least in my experience). The first guy I was with was a heavy smoker. His kiss was very slimy and gross. And of course he turned out to be a slimy guy who cheats on his husband (yeah I did say that right) when he's out of town. My ex had real warm kisses at first, but during sex they turned very cold and slimy. Which is how he turned out to be in our relationship. My current boyfriend does not know how to kiss. He just opens his mouth and covers yours. It's like he tries too hard. Which based on this last few months yeah he does try too hard and there are times where he clearly doesn't know what he's doing. Only a few guys I've been with were great kissers and sadly I didn't stick with them. Well I will eventually.
I know what I'm going to say is going to be extremely shallow and mean so I'm going to try to soften it. Wow this guy has a great body and I love his bicep tattoo, but I can't help but notice his ears. Like I said I know it's shallow. It's just if you were starting from the legs up you'd stop a little right there. No one is perfect (me especially). I just think that he should let his hair out a little more. Think it would make them less noticeable.
Like I said I can not stand Ted Colunga. Well I can in certain videos, and this is one of them. I mean the guy has a great body (obviously). And a very impressive dick, but there are sometimes where he's just so smug. Or something like that. Whatever it is, it just turns me off. I know I'm one of the few guys that probably thinks that, but I can't help it. I think in some videos he just didn't try. I bet if I met him in person I could figure it out.
I have no clue what I would do if I came across this. You know waking up in the morning looking outside to see a guy in latex climbing down the fire escape in the building across the alley. I'm sure I would say, "wow must have been a great costume party". I'd then follow him until he was out of sight. I'm sure I'd want to yell over, but kinda hard to get the guy's attention without anyone around me noticing him.
I've said it time and time again. A good kiss can make or break sex for me. The same goes for porn. Now there are scenes where I understand the actors can't kiss and I like those scenes for something different. A kiss can tell you a lot about how a guy is going to be in bed (least in my experience). The first guy I was with was a heavy smoker. His kiss was very slimy and gross. And of course he turned out to be a slimy guy who cheats on his husband (yeah I did say that right) when he's out of town. My ex had real warm kisses at first, but during sex they turned very cold and slimy. Which is how he turned out to be in our relationship. My current boyfriend does not know how to kiss. He just opens his mouth and covers yours. It's like he tries too hard. Which based on this last few months yeah he does try too hard and there are times where he clearly doesn't know what he's doing. Only a few guys I've been with were great kissers and sadly I didn't stick with them. Well I will eventually.
I know what I'm going to say is going to be extremely shallow and mean so I'm going to try to soften it. Wow this guy has a great body and I love his bicep tattoo, but I can't help but notice his ears. Like I said I know it's shallow. It's just if you were starting from the legs up you'd stop a little right there. No one is perfect (me especially). I just think that he should let his hair out a little more. Think it would make them less noticeable.
Like I said I can not stand Ted Colunga. Well I can in certain videos, and this is one of them. I mean the guy has a great body (obviously). And a very impressive dick, but there are sometimes where he's just so smug. Or something like that. Whatever it is, it just turns me off. I know I'm one of the few guys that probably thinks that, but I can't help it. I think in some videos he just didn't try. I bet if I met him in person I could figure it out.
I have no clue what I would do if I came across this. You know waking up in the morning looking outside to see a guy in latex climbing down the fire escape in the building across the alley. I'm sure I would say, "wow must have been a great costume party". I'd then follow him until he was out of sight. I'm sure I'd want to yell over, but kinda hard to get the guy's attention without anyone around me noticing him.
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