Feel like I'm in a movie

I honestly feel like I'm in one of those gay movies that I've been watching all the time. The one where a guy is with a guy who they don't belong with. Then some guy comes along that just clicks with him and you yell at the screen saying date the new guy. As some of you noticed (just follow this train of thought) I didn't post on Saturday. The reason is that I was hanging out with the guy I met on squirt. The really nice one with the perfect dick. Well we got talking and had just such a good time. You see he lost his job and I knew he needed a friend to just vent with. And I helped him so he relaxed and we hung out until he really had to go otherwise my bf was going to catch him. The guy is amazing. He's such an alpha male, but he's a bottom which is honestly what I love in a guy. He's into porn, he has nothing against threesomes. Hell he even said if we were dating we both could play around. And the real nail in the coffin is that he respects me enough to not force himself on me. He's never once said pack your stuff you are coming with me or tried to get me in trouble. So I'm at this crossroad. I do love my boyfriend. We have had great times, but at the same time I feel like I'm trapped. Am I with him just because he will be majorly depressed if I leave, or am I with him because I love him and this new guy just sparks my interest because he's new and so different from my boyfriend. He is only a year and 2 days younger. This is why I need a shrink. I need to figure it out because it's not fair to either guy. If I'm going to leave my boyfriend I won't get another shot later on. Stupid soul searching. Can I go one week without having that happen at least once?
When I saw this picture the first thought I had was "Wow, kinda looks like someone put someone else's face on Zeb Atlas' body". I mean the body hair is almost identical. Everything is almost identical except the dick. Don't know who the guy is so I can't see other photos. Doesn't look like it's been doctored, but like I said just seems so similar to Zeb Atlas' physique. Don't see that everyday.
Remember how I said wrestling is a homoerotic sport and no one can convince be otherwise. Yeah this photo just reinforces that. I do not know if that guy's bulge was enhanced or not, but it just goes along with this look he has. This yeah I just kick this kids ass and now it's mine look. It's another reason why I could wrestle because I'd always come out of the match with a very visible boner. The photo timing could not be better.
I really wish that Sean Cassidy would come back to porn. He really was one of the few greats. I mean when he fucked or got fucked he really got into it. To me it never felt like he was over acting. It looked like he was really getting into it. He was loving a guy drilling into him over and over again. I truly can not think of a scene that he did that I didn't like. The last anyone heard of him he was in Hawaii with his boyfriend. That lucky bastard.