Videos

First up is Matt Cole and Tyler Saint. Don't ask me what movie this is from because honestly I have no clue. Will say the two make a good pair. Similar body types just makes for a better pairing I think. Next up is Rock Hardford. Apparently he's a handy man that likes to show off while doing his work. If you aren't a fan of guys with tattoos then he probably won't be your type. He's certainly my type. I'd give him a massage any day. Third up is the legendary Rick Hammersmith. This is the 2nd part of the video. Basically Rick is doing a photo shoot when he and his photographer get a little hot under the collar. And well we all know where that goes. Must say kinda would be hard to not get hard around Rick. Such a sexy fucker. Next up is a little gym fantasy. I'm sure most of us have had something similar to this. You see a big or two big guys working out and you just want to do very naughty things to. I sadly have to keep that in check which is a lot harder then it sounds. Especially when this nice guy comes in. But back to the video. Man I wish I went to a gay gym where you had to workout naked. Then it's the Drill Sergeant. I love the first part of this video. And sadly from the thumbnail you can kinda see why. It starts off with sergeant giving a massage to a lucky guy then this other guy shows up to watch. Yeah not a sexy finish, but then again I think that guy is the producer or something. Anyway it's great because it has a big beefy sergeant giving a massage. Like you could keep things down if that was massaging you. Last up is the full movie Hairy Hunx Big and beefy. Basically it's a bunch of scenes with muscle bears. I really don't have to say more. If that didn't do it for you then you should skip it. 

And soon it will be a new year

I had a very interesting weekend. I learned a lot about myself over the past weekend and established what my New Years Resolution will be. First up Ted went to go visit the guy he's been talking to for awhile so I had the apartment to myself most of the weekend. I was going to see if I could get a guy to come over or go over to his place, but I really didn't feel like doing that. I spent most of saturday edging while on a4a and manhunt, but didn't really see any body that was interested. Then towards 7ish I met a guy on a4a that seemed nice. We chatted then he just kinda disappeared. He stopped e-mail for like an hour then all of a sudden came back. Then he just seemed a little spacey. Like his mind was else where. Well we moved it to texts and he asked where I was and I told him. He then said "well if you come pick my drunk ass up and drop me off in the morning". I said where are you, he told me, and then again asked where I was. Well needless to say I wasn't driving over there so I asked him to send me a photo. He wouldn't and then said just move on I don't need this. So I did and just spent the night by myself. In the morning he "apologized" and tried to resume the conversation where it left off. Even asked if I'd come over and snuggle with him. What I realized after that whole thing was that I've grown a little bit. The old me would have driven over there and picked him up, but I listened to my gut. He was clearly a rude drunk and who knows if he wouldn't have gotten violent too. So that made me feel a bit better. I even told a friend about it and he agreed that I made the right choice in not pursing that guy further.
In other good news I'm still talking to at least one of the guys I met. The one that contacted me on grindr. We talked a good share of yesterday during the Packer v.s. Vikings game. Then we kept talking most of the night. And we agreed we both want to meet each other, but we are being patient. We've agreed to meet and will set something up when we both feel ready. In fact I'm texting him right now. Which has lead to my New Year's resolution of patience. I know that if I'm patient and take this one step at a time I'll find the right guy. I'm looking for someone to spend the rest of my life with and that takes time. I can't do what I did with Coach and just jump at the chance to have someone. I ignored a lot of his red flags and it lead to a lot of problems in my personal life. So I'm keeping the eyes open and going slow. I'm not going to compromise my time table. I'm not using the B word for awhile and I'm certainly not introducing him to anyone until we are in a good place.
Like I said this all came from Ted being gone for a weekend. So here is looking forward to the new year. May it be filled with better relationships, more personal growth, and a little less Kim Kardasian. Ugh that woman drives me crazy.

 I would love to have this happen to me in 2013. Just to stay over with a guy and in the morning find him cooking breakfast naked. He doesn't have to look like this guy, but I certainly wouldn't mind it.

 I miss Joey from theguysite. Him and his partner mike were such sexy bears. I of course was found of Joey. He is just such a teddy bear. He's not super tall, but he's built like a solid brick shithouse (another expression I never really understood). Would love to climb all over him. I hope him and Mike are together. Seems like a lot of couples broke up this year sadly.

 I really have nothing to add to this photo. Other than wish it was my mouth on that dick not his briefs or jock.

I'm always amazed by pictures like this. I mean I know that with digital advances you can do stills of a video to capture a cumshot like this, but it still blows my mind. No pun intended. Now the vintage photos of such a shot are the ones that really are amazing because that took a lot of camera clicking and hoping you got a good shot.

Videos

First up is Jake Genesis fucking Samuel Colt. This actually is kinda interesting. You have Jake who looks all professional and polished then you have Sam who looks like he just came off the street. I'm sure that was done on purpose. Plus both guys are super sexy. A lot of hard muscle pounding more hard muscle. Next up is a vintage couch scene. After getting passed the needless dialog that moves the story along we get right down to it. Will say the only thing that annoys me about this clips is that only the pants and underwear come off. I don't know why guys keep their shirts on during sex. It's one of those things that bugs me. I have said it before and I'm certainly saying it again. I need to get a home gym and this 3rd clip proves it. How else can you have sex on gym equipment without working at a gym. You will have to excuse the intro. Apparently this is the beginning scene for this video. Last up is David Dirdam and Franseco D'Macho. There's no real plot to this. Short version is that Franseco is doing community service and ends up servicing David. Yeah that about sums it up.

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Slowly moving away

Slowly, but surely I'm getting away from my funk. Around Christmas time I get a major case of S.A.D. It also didn't help I was hitting so many walls with guys. Well I'm feeling better. Not trying to get my hopes too high cause if I do then I'll end up right back in the same place. Been having a few weird interactions though.
An older guy came into the store looking for some weight loss product that wouldn't be hard on his heart. Well I bring him back to the amino acids and as I'm pulling down the L-Carntine he randomly grabs my arm and says, "wow looks like someone works out". I was so creeped out that the rest of the conversation was just flat out awkward. Let me explain why. He was not someone that I found attractive. Not in the least. The other thing is I have never had a guy grab my arm unless we were dating or having sex. I also don't dress as if I'm showing off. Hell I have only put like 3 images of myself up on this blog and none of them involved flexing. I was also wearing a long sleeve shirt which is not flattering on my arms (my chest is another story). So it was just weird for a guy to do that. Plus I can't imagine randomly going into a store and then grabbing a guys arm. I know I should be flattered, but it didn't come from a guy that I'd be flattered by. If this was an older guy that was a bodybuilder then yeah that would mean something because he knows a thing or two about arms. This was just some random old guy off the street. I know this post makes my age show, but I can't help it. It was just a creepy circumstance.
In other news two guys are talking to me. Both are my age and live a decent distance away. Far enough that it's a drive, but not so far away that it feels like I'm in a different time zone. The thing with me and Coach was that it was practically an hour drive for me to meet up with him. I was doing most of the driving. He came up in my area, but it was only for school. Plus he had a house so needless to say there wasn't a chance to be more in between. Been talking to both of them. Not getting my hopes up right now. Just talking to them and getting to know them. We will see what happens with that.

 I wonder if this picture was taken just a second too early. Based on the fact that this guy has his mouth wide opened it looks like he's expecting to shoot a load in his mouth. Is nice to play with in your mind. Do think that he's begging to get his ass fucked and have a boy sit on his cock.

 Well here is a big ole teddy bear for you. He just screams a sweetheart to me. I know I don't know him personally, but that's just the impression I get. Just feels like he's not vain and would just hold you if you need to be held. Or give you a night to remember if you'd prefer.

 The first thing I thought when I saw this image was, this guy clearly needs to get fucked. I mean he just has such a hot ass. That's one I could rim for days. Plus that's just easy access right there. Just more reason why I wish I went into gymnastics.

A classic Carl Hardwick image. I do wish that he'd make a comeback. Just seemed like Carl/Rusty knew/knows how to pose. He's such an icon. Sadly he didn't do too many jack off movies. There are 3 I know for sure and one where he just poses nude.

Doing better

Needless to say that yesterday was not one of my better days. Sometimes I need to get away from the apps and the sites. Basically what brought it on was that I had sent out several messages on several different sites and didn't get a single response back. Well that makes you think maybe you shouldn't throw back guys that didn't meet your standards. The thing is my standards really aren't high. Well compared to others. I've seen guys who have a laundry list of what you have to look like before they even talk to you. I don't do that. I know when I see a list like that, I get the sense that the guy is stuck up and I move on even if I hit all the points. For me I want a guy that treats me with the respect I give him. So with that in my head I know I can't just bend over and accept whatever comes my way. I don't deserve that.
After I realized that a guy actually hit me up on grindr. Unprompted by me. The weird thing is that he lives out of the range of my grindr and yet he sent me a message. And his birthday is today oddly enough. I'm not getting my hopes up, but it at least makes me feel like I got something to give. I also had a guy talk to me on adam4adam. So I'm feeling better about myself today.

 I wouldn't mind switching positions with Steve Cruz. I'm not a fan of public nudity, but if Bruno Bond was holding me I'd make an exception. Plus being on a bike like that. That's just super sexy. I wonder what this image is from anyway.

 That's Tober Brandt. He's doing stuff again, but typically bareback related. I saw a video of him recently and he's lost a lot of size. He use to look like a bodybuilder. Now he's a bit smaller, but still well built. He's always dying his hair or changing it up. The funny thing is that I never got the impression that he was an intimidating guy. He always struck me as a big ole teddy bear.

 Wow. I can't tell where this guy works, but he would have me speaking jibberish. Not only does his sleeves not cover those giant biceps, but looks like he's got a pretty big bulge. Or he stuffed it. Just know that it's begging to be checked out.

I still find Vince Ferelli super sexy. I know he did a BBJam for Jimmy Z, but his hair was really long. Didn't like it. I don't know how old this image is, but if he went back to his normal hair then I'd be all over him again. I don't know what it is about long hair that turns me off of a guy even if it's a guy I've majorly crushed on.

Videos

First video today is Ray Stone barebacking Brad Ramsey. Seems like Ray Stone has popped up all of a sudden and doing everything. Well was at some point. Seems he's gone quiet again. Anyway he is a daddy bear I wouldn't mind topping me. I really wish I knew the name of the patient in this scene. I've seen him in a few other things, but just don't know his name. Anyway he's waiting to see the doctor for some reason and gets a little horny while waiting. Well I don't need to tell you what happens when the nurse comes in to check in on him. Mainly cause you can just watch the video for that :). Third up is the movie Double Dippers from Kristen Bjorn. Basically is a montage of different scenes from Kristen Bjorn movies that involve double penetration. Then it's one sexy daddy bear cumming for the camera. I use to know this guy's screen name but it of course escapes me and I'm in my lazy mode. Anyway would love to be the one to make him moan like that. Last up is a college guy that needs money. So he does a little webcam jack off session and I assume his "boyfriend" in this situation tries to talk some sense into him telling him he could have just asked for the money. Blah blah blah they then get down to the fucking part. Life is so much easier in a porno don't you think?

Post Christmas

It's the day after Christmas and I'm just ready for this year to end. Christmas was nice and everything, but the thing is that I'm still basically alone. I'm just starting to wonder if my standards are too high or something. I mean do I truly expect too much out of guys and/or dates. For instance if a guy doesn't respond back to a message I kinda give up. I grew up thinking that when someone messages you, you at least reply back once. Even if it's just sorry I'm not interested. Not the guys here. They just won't respond back or they'll block you. I don't know. Maybe I just need a tougher skin or something. Well I guess I can only hope 2013 is better for my love life than 2012. Also would help if I was able to get some single friends my own age. Most guys I know are older than me and are starting to pair off. Hell even Ted has a guy interested in him. And they talk all the time. I'm happy he's moving on, but at the same times proves I'm officially the single guy in the group and it makes me feel weird. I say that because no matter what I'm the odd man out. Plus it always makes me feel like whatever couple I'm with, that they think I'm just there to take away one of them. I know it's all in my head (least I hope it is), but it's the way I feel. Well here's hoping.

 Bara artist always amaze me. This is by far one of the most realistic drawings ever. In fact it's so realistic I ran across this same image as the profile image for someone on growlr. I'm sure it's fooled a few guys until they looked closer. Honestly if they just used the head and chest they might have gotten away with it. I'd just hate to use this as the image then have a guy want to meet me because of it.

 This is just one of those images you see in fitness magazines. You know the massive bodybuilder with super vascularity doing some exercise to make it look easy. These were the images I use to jack off too when I was younger. Still find them incredibly arousing.

 This seems like one of those Colt Studio shots. This guy is built, but smooth. Not to mention he's oiled up too. Seeing it doesn't have the Colt logo on the bottom it probably isn't, but it's from around that era. Wouldn't mind taking this guy home.

I wish I could post this image in the store for those guys that insist that once they get old they have to get fat. This guy isn't a huge bodybuilder, but he's in good shape. Proving that with proper exercise (and supplementation) you can be in good shape.

Videos

Pretty sure I've posted this multiple times, but that's because this first one is so good. I can not for the life of me remember the name of the bottom in this scene. I believe it's Eduardo something. Anyway it's a hot scene. I always blow or get really close watching it. Next is Eric Evans and Brent Baines. This is from back when they were still a couple. And it does show. Love to be the meat between that bear sandwich. Then it's Rick Hammersmith flip flopping. It's a scene he did for smoking hunks. It's a big deal just because Rick doesn't top much. Well on camera he doesn't. Nice to actually see him top a guy. Man I wouldn't mind that under my tree. Lastly is Axel and Jake ryder. This was from a movie called trust I believe talking about couples who bareback. Don't ask me if they are still together cause I have no clue.

Christmas Eve

It's Christmas Eve and looks like I was right on the money before. No new guy for me this year. Yesterday was supposed to be my date, but that turned out horribly. I was suppose to come over to his place and hang out for a bit. We agreed to meet at noon. He said he set his alarm. I get there and shocker he isn't up. Not only that, but there are 3 guys (him included) waking up. He told me he had 1 roommate. Well turns out that one of those guys stayed the night. And it's not the first time that this guy has brought guys over. His roommate who actually isn't his roommate, but a decent guy that is letting him stay over works third shift and wants to sleep. So already things are awkward. John (cause we share the same first time) also smokes. You aren't suppose to smoke in the apartment. And it's not really an apartment it's a studio place so no bedroom whatsoever. So John finally gets his clothes and stuff and hopes in the shower. 30 minutes later he is still not done. Keep in mind he knows I'm waiting for him. Well he just gets trapped in warm water blah blah blah. We finally get going and guess what, he doesn't have a car. Not surprising since he doesn't have a job. Which means no money. Yeah I didn't buy him anything for lunch. Dropped him off at his apartment and went home. Worst 3 hours ever. I should have left when I had the chance. The really annoying thing is that he texts me later on saying he was hoping I was going to come into the bathroom while he was showering. Why the fuck would I? Ok I know why I in theory would, but his roommate is trying to sleep, the bathroom is not sound proof, and I just met this guy. Yep great great date. I'm not doing that again. He has far too many red flags. I can live with smoking or not having a job. Well the not having a job only works if you are actively searching for one and have a car, but he's so inconsiderate. And is basically a sponge I don't need that.
Will say that this whole thing does make me wonder if my standards are too high. I mean Tommy 4 was nice, but I'm just not physically attracted to him. This guy is decent looking, but no redeeming qualities. Is it really substance with no attraction or attraction with no substance. Guess I have to look forward to next year and hope.

 This was an image that Rocky LaBarre tweeted last holiday season. I didn't post it last year cause by the time I got it, Christmas was over so I've been holding onto it for a year. If only he could be my bad santa.

 I found this one on lolsnaps and just had to save it and post it. Sadly I don't think it works like this. Oh well maybe one day I'll get this. The true love part I mean.

 I know this image screams summer, but I just saw that face and thought Santa in the summer. Man I wish I could draw.

 D. Chooi is such a great artist. I always love his Santas. If only my apartment came with a chimney and I had a santa trap.

Apparently Santa's little helper is a bit horned up. Must say this image proves why I can never go into bodybuilding (besides the diet, the physique, the training, etc). Those posers are not exactly loose and I have a little too much junk especially when excited. I'd probably look something like this.

Videos

First up is the massive Doc Rock fucking. This is the latest thing I've seen him do, so I'm wondering if he's decided to not do gay porn anymore. The funny part of this whole movie is that Doc uses his dick to help the guy get over his addiction. I'm sorry, but that would start up a whole new addiction for me. This next clip proves that while the coach is away the players will play. It's a duo scene that eventually becomes a threesome. It's a pretty good scene since it's kinda believable. Well that one guy is the coach and the other two actually play a sport. Then it's time to have fun with the stripper. After a little strip show one guy goes into fantasy mode and wham there you go. This is kinda one reason why I'd never want to be around a stripper. I don't know how to act. Plus all that ass in face and oiled up body would lead me to bone up and then I wouldn't know what the protocol is. This next scene is with Dean Coxx and Marco Paris. This is more of just a nice sensual clip. There is no cumshot. Just a lot of rubbing and bathing and kissing and what not. I only post clips like this if they are good boner material. Lastly is my porn boyfriend Rocky La Barre. This is the solo he did for Pantheon Bear. If you are going to watch any clip today make it this one. He's mostly looking directly at the camera and talking dirty. It's a very verbal scene. I just find his voice so sexy and the little scenes he sets up are so hot. Then once he gets you all worked up he watches some porn and blows. You can hear it going. And big plus is that it's gay porn. One thing that annoys me is when you can hear porn in the back ground and you just know it's straight stuff. It's a personal pet peeve.

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The curse of Dec. 21st

I swear today is cursed for me. I had a good arm day at the gym and not too many people were there. I didn't have any problems driving on the ice. I'm back to edging in the morning. I was feeling pretty good. Then I hope out the shower and realize I'm a little congested and was going to go blow my nose. Then it began. I got a nose bleed and got it under control. Or so I thought. Just as I was getting ready to put on a shirt it started up again worse. Well got that under control in time to go to work. When I get to work I'm in and I think I feel it starting again. No it was just mucus so I clean up a bit and wham again a nose bleed. As of right now I've been nose bleed free for going on 3 hours, but I'm afraid to even touch the nostril. Then to make matters worse the sink decides to freak out and not shut off so I have to call my boss over to help me shut it off. Yeah it's been a great day so far. The only good thing that can come of it...well only two good things is Ted is going to take me out for dinner (just because I've had a hard week as you can see) and my mom's birthday is tomorrow. It's going to be a long day.

 Here's str8 jeff playing santa under the tree. Seriously I will never be able to look at santa the same way again.

 I got this from one of the yahoo groups I'm apart of. I'm sure Santa stuffed this guy's stocking. You can tell it's a fake hat but it still works. And now I'm hard.

 Carlo Masi is just making sure that this guy enjoys his present. It's come from the little sack that Santa always carries around with him wink wink. I think I'm starting to understand why I get so horny/lonely around the holiday season.

I've always wondered how those mall santa's unwind after dealing with all those snot nosed brats. I'm sure they would have to do this several times a day to make sure they didn't spring a boner at the worst possible time. I know that if someone sits in my lap a boner is a natural response.

And there's the snow

So we are suppose to be getting this massive snow storms. It's actually not that bad so far. Really the only problem is the wind is so strong it's causing a lot of drifting. I got to work around 8:40 this morning. I shoveled the back walk, and that of our neighbors, did the deposit, ran to the bank, got back, started receiving in product and labeling and putting it away, reshoveled, finished putting stuff away, waited on two customers, shoveled again, then sat down. I need to actually go back out and shovel again. That's what drifting does. Like I said doesn't seem like we are getting much additional snow.
In other news 3 guys are interested in me now. 1 for dating and the other two for friendship/friends with benefits. The guy that wants to date me is 2 years older than me and is a top. That's not really a problem since I do want to bottom again, but I'll have to stress it's not something that will happen over night since I haven't been topped in years. And who knows I might get him to want to bottom too. Will say physically he isn't my ideal match. He's my height and 122. At my skinniest I only hit 128. And that was because I stopped eating cause of depression. So we will see what happens with him. The other guys are just nice guys to talk to that want to do dirty things on the side. I lead an odd life.

 As I said yesterday, images like this don't help my naughty santa fantasies. Man I really wish I could draw.

 Wouldn't mind this guy coming down my chimney (if my apartment had one). Oddly enough I haven't seen anything new from flexbigmuscle (the dude in the picture). Wonder what he's up to.

 This is Bo Dixon. He's the guy who only had a solo video and tons of pictures for the longest time. Then he did that scene in Paging Dr. Finger and now we see random photos of him from the net. Will say I think he makes a really good Santa. A really really good Santa.

This is pretty much what I have in my head now when I think of sitting on Santa's lap. Porn has ruined me I swear. Oh well I'll be someone else's headache one day.

Videos

The first video today is of Scott Carter in Cocky boy. Normally I could kinda pass on videos of guys jacking off to themself in the mirror, but I personally have a huge Scott Carter crush. I think it's the eyes really. I was glued to the screen the entire time. Wish I could have been there to help him out personally. Next up is Colton Ford and the maintenance guys. The funny thing that I'm surprised no one caught was that the guys who are suppose to be fixing the water heater look like they were trying to clean for some reason. I mean I'd get if they were cleaning up around a pipe or something, but that's just me trying to make a porn scene real. And on a side note this the only time I've ever seen Colton Ford with dark hair in a scene. Seems like everything you find now he has whiter hair. Except for in that vampire series. Anyway I digress again watch the scene. Next is a scene from Hairy guys do with Patrick Ives and Marc West. I don't know the name of the boy in this scene, but I really wasn't focused on him. To be honest I wish it was just Marc West and Patrick Ives. And fyi it is a bareback scene as well. Then we have a pretty much universally favored video. It's a bodybuilder bareback orgy. And just fyi I call it an orgy if there are five or more guys. Anyway I can't remember the name of the video this comes from, but I do know it stars Dave Stone, Bo Knight, Erik Hunter, J.C. Carter, and Flex Deon-Blake. Yeah I've seen it that many times. It was pretty much the last scene that any of the guys really did. Think most of them retired soon after. Last up is the 3rd part of the movie LA tool and die. Yes I know there is a Christmas scene in there I did not plan this. It's just how it fell in the line up. LA Tool and Die was the very first vintage film I ever saw. And it's why I started watching a lot more of the classics and learning about the roots of gay porn.

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Kinda Crazy

So I just had a kinda crazy two days. Before I get into that I've been getting behind on my questions mainly because formspring is no longer compatible with blogger. Before I could just answer the questions there and they would post here. Not anymore. So now I can tweet the answers, but that's the only place so I'll also answer them here.

Q:Is this John cOLETTI OF fox studios?

A: Possibly. I don't know which video you are looking at.

Q: hi sexy man

A: Hello you

As you can tell I haven't gotten a lot of questions on there which is one reason why I forget about it. 

Now back to the craziness. Suddenly I'm super popular on sites. I recently changed my picture on growlr, grindr, and scruff and growlr and scruff have shown an increase interest. Don't know about grindr. And on growlr I'm getting a lot of guys unlocking their photos for me. Now of course this doesn't amount to anything of substance, but it's flattering. Did get a guy today that who wanted to fuck. He is in an open relationship. See I'm getting to the point where guys like that are really irritating. You already have a boyfriend and yet you need to go out and fuck someone else. Pretty sure my profile does not say nsa. I mean I'm looking for a real relationship not being a third for a couple or the guy on the side. Once I told him that I wasn't comfortable talking about fucking when he has a boyfriend cause I'm looking for something real he relocked his photos and stopped talking to me. Which is fine really. I also started talking to two guys that seem interested in me. One has the same first name as me. He wants a relationship. He's pretty much one of those you never have to guess what he's thinking types. He hasn't hidden his interest in me which is nice. The other is just looking for some fun, but actually is perfectly ok just being friends. See that's a guy that I can sleep with cause he isn't looking for a release and I never hear from him again. So we will see where all that goes. I'm again not getting my hopes up. Like I said I don't think anything special is going to happen until after the new year. 

 With Christmas 6 days away I figured I start posting some holiday images. Sorry guys I only have Santa and Christmas themed images. One of the first adult Santa images I found was from D.Chooi. Now granted it wasn't this one (that one was on a hard drive that got a virus) and ever since then well yeah the rest is history. Makes more since for Santa to be this built if he has a bag of toys for every girl and boy, but I guess a fat santa is less intimidating to kids.

 The next two come from Jeff's muscle studio. The guy does great work. Typically his subjects are well built and tend to have facial hair. Man I wish I could draw.

 These are two of Jeff's characters from his comic Hearts and Iron. On the left is John and the right hand side is Carl. As you can tell John is a bit more endowed than Carl. Not to give a spoiler away (but I am) John's ancestor is none other than Herakles, better known as Hercules. Why can't I find guy's like this under my tree?

I do believe this Santa has a present for us. Pretty sure I don't want the box santa is holding. And to think I wonder where my dirty santa fantasies come from.

Come on get better

Once again I feel like I'm getting better, but with me you never know. Just hope it doesn't migrate again. I'm also feeling a little less hopeless today, but I have resigned myself to the fact that nothing special is going to happen until after the new year. Too many guys that I see on the sites are just in town visiting so nothing is really going to happen with those guys. Or if it does I'm traveling 2 hours just to see them or vice versa. Other than that nothing really to report. The year really is winding down and so am I. Then again that might be the snow out zapping my strength.

 I just want to hold this guy down and feel his body from head to toe. I know that makes me a "pervert" but I can't help it. I know what I like when I see it.

 Ok if I had a body like that I'd photograph myself too. You can tell that's what he's doing because of the little remote in his hand. I wonder what other photos he's taken. Wouldn't mind seeing some of his fuck photos because you know he's taken a few.

 Like a lot of guys (I've discovered) I had a crush on Zangief. He was my favorite street fighter and not because of his fighting skills. I also thought the actor that played in him the street fighters movie was good. He was this big Russian bear that you just wanted to do naughty things with. Will say that this picture isn't my favorite since he seems a bit more cartoonish than I like, but it gets the point across.

This guy looks familiar, but I don't know why. I assume it's because he's done at least a jack off video, but I could be wrong. The tattoo and face just look familiar. I doubt I was lucky enough to meet this guy in person.

Videos

I'm going to be honest with you guys. I'm just not feeling up to my normal standards. This is the point where I would normally give some insight into the videos, but I'm the complete opposite of horny today. It's hard to even look at the videos right now. I almost didn't post these today so take the good with the bad. The videos go as fallows. The first is Rod Roddick fucked by Wayne Rogers of Smoking Hunks. The 2nd is another Smoking hunks video with Jack Austin and Wayne. The third is a vintage video of a guy getting fucked by a police officer. Fourth is a scene from Cowboy where Tom Katt gets fucked. This is also when he wasn't this born again Christian guy. Fourth up is a video of two guys get a little frisky while working out. Also the reason why I can't have a spotter when I do bench press. Then last up is Troy and P showing why I like amateur stuff.

Still not better

I thought I was getting better, but nope feeling worse. It's gone from a sore throat to being congested and feeling like my head is in a fog. It's made me really lazy too. Just posting this blog is tiring me out cause I can't really think of anything to post. I know I need to post the videos like usual, but I'm just so down physically and emotionally. Short version guys are jerks and they feel like bigger jerks when I'm feeling sick. Short version, don't say you respond to messages or that your a nice guy if you don't know how to respond to said messages. Ugh I want to get under the covers and hibernate until spring.

Real or fake? I can't tel if that's just good placement, it's been altered, or if this guy really is that hung. It's sad I've gotten to the point where I even asks those questions, but we do live in a time of photoshopping and air brushing.

Better...kinda

Yesterday was just the apax of a very crappy week for me. I haven't been feeling well, sales are down at the store, and the rejection was just getting to me. I just didn't want to post at all. Plus the shooting that happened in Connecticut yesterday didn't help. I got so mad at myself because I have become so hardened to things like this. My first thought was that I'm not surprised. I'm a cynic. As hard as that is for others to believe I am. I truly do expect out of mankind and that was some of the worst. The worst part is that this tragedy will be used to score points. There is already some minister who is saying that god let this happen because we turned our backs on him. I'm paraphrasing what he said of course. How about we let the parents and families grieve before we start using this to further our own arguments. Don't see him saying that to the faces of those victims do you? Plus the real tragedy is that this could have been avoided. What I mean by that is we as a nation need to stop putting stigmas on mental illness. Every single person that has done a shooting like this has shown signs that there is something wrong with them. These aren't just people you see off the street that decide hey I'm going to go shoot up a mall, or theater, or elementary school. No these are individuals that need help before they do something like this. I'm saying this as someone that has been on the other side of the looking glass. I suffer from depression which is one reason why I started this blog. To catch myself and hopefully someone else will catch me, when I start going down that road again. I never wanted to shoot anyone, but I did want to hurt myself. If I hadn't caught the signs then I wouldn't be here today. My friends didn't really see what was going on because I had this mask up, but I did give little cracks that showed that I was hurting. Even asked a friend if they thought I was depressed. If we don't make it ok to talk about these things we are just going to keep having things like this happen. Yes we can burn all the guns in the world, and yes I think we need to ban assault riffles from being in the hands of those not in uniform, but when you are mentally ill you think you have nothing to lose and will break the law. This needs to be a two fold approach, but sadly I already know it won't go anywhere and people will forget once this has scabbed over.
Hate to be a downer, but just had to get it out. Like I said it hasn't been a good week and it's all just hit at once.

 This is Trey Walker. I personally prefer him with a beard instead of clean shaven. Once I see that a guy looks good in a beard (and there are actually guys that don't look good in beards) it's hard to see a guy not in it. It's like when Jake Deckard went with a mustache instead of a full blown beard. Anyway I still think he's sexy and would never let him leave the bed.

 I always get these older guys that tell me how great of shape they use to be in. Typically they blame their age and what not, but here is proof that just because you get older doesn't mean you can't stay in good shape. Yeah you can't have a body of a 25 year old at 65 (without hormone replacement or steroids), but you can still look good and maintain muscle. It's like the basic law of physics. A body in motion stays in motion.

 I can't help but wonder if I had a body like this guy, if I'd be more popular on sites. I mean think about it. If you saw just the body wouldn't you be a little curious or intimidated that you wouldn't be this guy's type? How about if you messaged you first? Just a thought.

Jasper Van Dean. I do miss seeing him in videos. Did seem like he kinda quietly retired. Then again this was before the age of twitter and everyone and their cousin talking about it. I loved his accent cause it wasn't too heavy to where you couldn't understand him, but just there enough to be sexy. Plus he was hot as a top or a bottom. Wouldn't mind finding a guy like him around here.

Frustration

I'm just not having a good day today. My throat hurts, my head hurts, I'm super tired, and I'm here until 6. Then on top of that I couldn't find my phone, thought I left it at my apartment, went back for it to not find it there, get back to work call it, don't hear it, look in my car, go back into the office, figure I lost it at some point, move some papers, and there it is. Yeah that has not helped my disposition one bit. Then on top of that I'm just sick of all these video sites. I'm tempted to just quit looking all together. It has nothing to do with you guys, it has to do with the sites. It's getting to the point where I hate looking for videos cause I can't stand the ads. For example if I go look for vids on xvideos I have to deal with ads on the sidebar. And these aren't ads targeted to gay guys even though I'm clearly in the gay part of the site. No it's women masturbating on webcam, or getting fucked. Then when I find a video I have two ads to deal with. Typically they love to show close up of vaginas (and thus securing my homosexuality) especially (sensitive gay eyes should skip this part) when said vagina is spewing cum. Yeah not pleasant. See it wouldn't be so bad if it was just some still photo of a topless woman. I can ignore those. It's the fact that they are moving that draw the attention. So I have to right click the ad and uncheck the play button, which doesn't always work and I have to be very careful on when I do it so I don't have a vagina staring at me. Or you get sites like porner bros that have these fake web chats where you are talking to some slut on a chat. Yes you can minimize it, but it's annoying that you have to do it every time. Now the site that I use to be fond of is falling pray to spamming pay sites. You get the all these sites that post like 1 minute flash clips and they take up a lot of the home screen, making it hard to find the good quality videos. In fact one such spammer posted a video of him taking a morning piss and dump. That was in fact the title of the video. And yeah he did in fact show said turd in the clip. Did the site take it down? No of course not. That would make sense. No they let him post it again under the same name. Even tweeted it on twitter. Maybe it's just the fact I'm under the weather, or maybe it's something else. Just know I'm getting so tired of ads on sites.

 I have no problem being the one that ties up Skye Woods like this. Actually I'd probably ties his hands behind his back and throw him down on the bed. I'd get in so much legal trouble if he didn't agree to everything.

 I really have nothing to add to this photo. Kinda speaks for itself.

 A bit of a throw back to the 80's. Hey let's get physical.

 I know this photo is doctored, but I don't care. How awesome would it be if this actually happened.