Think I have a date

So somehow I think I have a date for New Year's Eve. Scott and I have remained in contact despite all the stuff that went down. Well we got to talking and apparently he still has feelings for me and wants to give it a go. Now the reason why I said I think I have a date is because a lot can happen between then and now. Plus yesterday he asked what I was thinking when it came to a relationship between him and me. I said the distance is too much plus he has a problem with me living with my ex and he agreed. Well today he says he has no problem with the distance or that I live with my ex. So I'm cautiously optimistic. I think honestly it was more his hormones talking. At the time he was asking if I was edging and I said no. Well we kept iming and turns out he was quite horny. So we will see if anything happens of it. I told him I wanted to take it slow. We aren't having sex until I know for sure we are a couple. As Frank (who I hooked up with and gave this blog address) said in an e-mail "Your a great guy and deserve only the best." Which is true. So if he breaks it off again I'm done with him. As a boyfriend anyway. I gave him my concerns and if he's ok with the distance and is willing to pick me up from time to time then I'm not going to stop him. So again we'll see. If it doesn't happen then I got a backup. I signed up for manlist. Seemed like there were more guys my age on there, but also looks like no one has really been on recently in my area. So we'll see. Like I said I'm being cautiously optimistic because if I'm straight up pessimistic I know I'll go full blown depressed and I don't need that. I'm already shaky around this time anyway.
For me porn scenes grab my attention when there is a slightly more believability of the scene. It's the reason why I like this photo. I can believe someone would be naked reading the news. Now granted probably not with a boner, but still. I could even see a guy doing it to entice his boyfriend or girlfriend.
Now yes I do hate it when a guy is naked and covers up, but I will say I do like this one. It's kinda artsy. Just like the way his body is angled and curved. Just looks so...good looking. It's not that standard front on pose where the guy is so very clearly covering his junk.
Ah Karim. The annoying thing about him is that he spent most of his career in photos. Then he finally did a few movies and dropped out of sight. And the thing is he did more solo stuff than stuff with another guy. And I think the reason being is what's on his left hand. Pretty sure he gave up porn to be with a guy which I can respect. Just wish he did a few more things on video before he did.
What is it with gay men and straight women and bad boys. Why is it that they are so appealing to us. Guys like this one, or Ricky Sinz or Harley Everett. I'm not saying they are "bad" but they look like they get into a lot of trouble because of their stature and many many tattoos. This man could be the nicest man you'll ever meet in your life, but you can't say you'd have a problem if he was some badass biker. Are the terrible for a relationship oh hell yes. We all know it, but would you still want to at least sleep with them once. OH HELL YES!