Thanks

I want to thank you guys that commented on my blog yesterday. Some days I post knowing no one will really actually comment on any thought I specifically am having that day. It's always nice to bounce an idea off someone. To answer the big burning question I've thought about staying and trying to work it out. The only problem is that it requires us to actually talk. We are going on the third day where he hasn't said a word to me. You see normally I text him morning and good night. He'd normally respond to both. Well over the past month I'm lucky to get anything after I say good morning and as for at night. Nope nada. So I've stopped. To see if he would see that something is wrong. Now anyone that knows me, knows I like routine. I tend to be very predictable. So when I do something out of the ordinary it's because something is clearly wrong. I use to send out a tip of the day to my friends every day. When I would miss a day, everyone would text me asking if something was wrong. In the several months Buck has known me I have texted him morning and night. I have not heard a thing from him. And it's not just that. It's the fact he hasn't sent me a photo teasing me in forever. He doesn't tell me when he goes to work, something he use to always do. All these things that he normally did he's stopped. Now I chalked it up to stress and depression, but all of that came on all of a sudden. I've had depression. It doesn't just come on. There are signs that something is up. He just stopped. No explanation. Once again we skipped a Saturday of not seeing each other. Now before I again chalked it up to him working Oktoberfest and being a bartender. I've been making excuses for quite some time. Now don't go thinking I haven't tried to get him to open up to me. I've talked to him and said I'm here for him. Nothing. He use to tell me if he had a job lead. I found out about the last one on facebook. He will openly discuss the president's healthcare law with his brother on his wall then text me hello or how are you.
So keeping all this in mind I was texting my friend last night. And he said something kinda out of the blue. He said I had a really good sixth sense. Which is funny because I always thought it sucked. Plus it's more of me looking at the situation logically rather than a gut feeling. He also mentioned that Buck could be pulling back because he's not emotionally mature to just end it. Once again I get a guy telling me I'm very emotionally mature for someone my age. Plus I was watching Girl Code, because it's funny and any insight to how women think will help me with female customers, and they were talking about getting dumped. In the later part of the segment they mentioned there are signs that a guy will break up with you. The big sign is that he becomes withdrawn. They then give crazy examples like if you had surgery and he sends you a get well card he's about to break up with you. They had a guy on that said yeah I'll act like a jerk to get you to break up with me. If I don't then you won't get over me. Which got me thinking. Yeah that's kinda how I am when a break up happens. I get very withdrawn. Don't respond like I use to. So I think it's happening and if it isn't then Buck better man the fuck up and start acting like he's in a relationship. Not just that but introduce me to your friends. I'm not asking for a ring or to meet your parents. Just to meet your friends. Last week when he went to the birthday party would have been the best time. I think he's just too far into the closet to really be in a relationship with a guy. Guess that's what happens when you are the first guy another guy dates.

 Cowboys will probably forever be a sex symbol. I think it has to do with the fact they are known to work with their hands. They tend to also have very nice bodies. Heck you'd even say that about farm boys.

 I do not know if this is a still from a movie so don't ask. Neeedless to say that this is of Titpig Hurley. He's kinda hard not to recognize. I still think he's a very sexy man. And is probably one of the reasons why I'm so obsessed with playing with a guy's nipples.

 I do not know who this is. If I was to guess I think he would make for a good Wolverine in an x-men porn parody.

This is Frankie Latz. He's the supposed older brother of Peter Latz. Shave the head and you'd probably see it more. I say supposed because there is a video of Peter jacking off watching a video of Frank and saying that's his big brother. And it's not like we haven't seen a couple pretend to be brothers.