Halloween time

So today is Halloween. Basically that just means another day for me. I don't have kids and I don't go to Halloween parties so it's just another day. Then again I'm not a guy big into any holiday really. So all I'll be doing tonight is going home and answer the door for the 1 or 2 trick or treaters I may get coming by my apartment. As for the other aspect of my life I think I'm going to start looking again next week. I thought I was ready to date, but I'm not just yet. I know I'll be staying away from guys that haven't dated another guy yet. And if they haven't they have to have never dated a chick. Not dealing with another "I think it's just a faze" case again. Seems like I'm getting more and more picky. Then again I know I'm still not really. I'm just looking for a guy that actually wants to be with me. A guy who I can talk to and feel comfortable around. I know what I like physically, but of course that doesn't matter if I can't stand being in the room with the guy. Yeah I'd love to date a guy like in some of the pictures I post or videos I've seen. Just kinda sure it won't happen since I live in a small town. The guys that are anything like the videos or pics I post are all stuck up assholes that only want to date or hook up with guys like them. Or they are so far in the closet they found next year's Christmas presents.

 Since it's Halloween maybe I should dress up like a Cowboy. Might find any of these guys here if I do. We all know the saying. Save a horse and ride a cowboy.

 Which one of these guys would be your treat? I'm partial to the care bear since I am a fan of bears, but the devil seems like he has no reservations. Then again nothing wrong with a butt pirate.

 Then there is always the old time strong man. Back when they all had those handlebar mustaches and went around wearing singlets. Do Carnivals even have Strongmen anymore?

And dressing up isn't just limited to parties. Even some bodybuilder dress up on stage. I know someone has gone as batman.Guess it's fitting that this guy is going as black suit spider-man since he is stronger than the regular spider-man.

Videos

First up is a Japanese guy jacking. I guess really it's kinda 3 scenes in one. The first part has a guy (who isn't badly built) looking at pictures of guys and jacking. Then he starts sucking off another guy. Then the guy sucks him and eventually he finishes himself off. I like this one because the "censoring" isn't so great. You don't have any trouble making out anything about the cock. I still don't know why Japanese porn does this to be honest. Even when you read Bara there will be a very thin black line over the end of a penis. Next up is Marco Rossi and steve lyons. Now if you skip around like I do, don't be fooled. Marco does not get fucked in this. I don't know what the point having Steve rub his cock against Marco's ass really was. If it was to fake him getting fucked they did a terrible job because you can clearly see is cock is not in Marco's ass. Well other than that it's a decent scene. Third up is Duke Miller's lumberjack gangbang. You can tell this is a Big Blue production because they insist on letting you know that all the guys are "straight". Short version of this is that a group of Lumber Jack are far from town and from time to time they get hookers to come up and service the guys. Well they can't make it so they have to draw straws to see who will be the "woman" for the weekend. It's an annoying story line, but Duke Miller gets fucked so can't really complain can we? Last up is a clip that looks like it takes place in a school for porn. I know no such place exists, but wouldn't it be fun if it did. To see possible future porn stars learn from the best on how to really suck dick and take it. Fun fantasy right here.

So unmotivated

Just seems like I'm having trouble getting stuff done again. I know it mostly has to do with the weather. It also has to do with work. I've been pretty much not busy all day. The few customers I do get are basically assholes. Those that are "just looking" or looking for something we haven't sold in over a year. Or my favorite those that decide they want to get an attitude if we don't have what they are looking for. Had a guy yesterday wanting ginseng. We were out of it. He then proceeds to ask why are we out. Ok dumbass we are out because obviously we sold the last of it and more hasn't come in yet. What kind of dumb question is that. Of course I couldn't respond like that so I said we are out because it all sold. It has gotten really popular lately. He then proceeds to tell me it's because some store down town was selling it illegally. I said oh I didn't know. He then tells me it was in the paper. Now most of you have figured out the problem right there. How many 20-30 year olds do you know that read the paper. Better yet do you know anyone that actually gets the newspaper anymore? Exactly only the old people do. So I said I don't read the newspaper. Then he said something snide which then made me almost lose it. What you don't get out form back there often. No dumbass I don't read the paper because I'm not 90 years old. So I politely said if it's not on the local news then I don't know about it. That's the type of people I'm having to deal with and needless to say it's getting on my nerves. Then top that off with those 20 somethings that love to tell you that they can get something cheaper online. And yet they are in my store. This is why I wish everyone was forced to work at least one job in retail and/or food service. If they all had then they wouldn't act like this. How many waiters do you know that are jerks to wait staff when they go out? How often do you have an owner of a small business store go out and act up at a target? They don't for the simple reason that they wouldn't want someone doing it at there store. I swear the longer I work here the more cynical I get which I didn't think was possible.

 If you've even heard of Magic Mike or True Blood then you know exactly who this is. Joe Manganiello is one of my few celeb crushes. He plays the part of werewolf very well. I just wish that he was hairier, but the way he growls just is so hot. Plus he's so down to earth. I read an article where he was interviewed and he was very candid. He admitted he made mistakes growing up and has learned from them. He's also very gay friendly (which you have to be if you work on true blood). I believe he got a GLAAD award for something. I don't get Logo so when I was at my mom's I saw an ad for the award and he was in it. Anyway keep it up Joe. It's why you are one of my few celeb crushes.

 I normally hate cut off photos, but well this one works. I'll admit that I can be very submissive for the right guy. This guy would bring that out in me. Especially if I was looking up at him just like this. Woof!

 This is Steve Majors. He didn't do a lot of porn work, but there are quite a few pics of him floating around. I know he was in Bear Cage as the prison guard. To be honest I can't think of a video where he actually did something with another guy on camera. That specific video just had him jack off and there is another one where he jacks off too. Hmmm I'm going to have to research that one of these days.

This is Vince Ferelli. I had such a crush on him when he first came out. Most of the scenes he did were as a bottom then he got into doing some indie horror stuff. I know he did a show for Jimmy Z along with a solo. He also did a video on xtube with Casenelli. Think I spelled that right. Sadly I haven't seen anything of his recently. Shame because I'd love to see him get fucked again.

Kinda curious

So one of the videos yesterday got me thinking. Is there any rule on masturbation when you are in a relationship? We saw that a guy's boyfriend had to go to work and couldn't help him out. Yes he eventually got some, but I kinda wondered. If you live with your boyfriend or partner is there kinda some unwritten rule on masturbation? Like you can only do it if you are really horny and your partner isn't around. I know it's kinda stupid in the grand scheme of things, but I've always been curious. I personally think that if can get some then save it. Now I know there are guys out there that are constantly horny and that's fine. I just know that if I'm getting some on a regular basis that I don't really need to go and jack off. Edging maybe, but not jacking off. Then there comes the jack off material. I know personally I'm ok if the guy I'm dating watches porn. Hell I'd love to watch porn with a guy I'm dating for once. Just for something fun to try. With that being said I know some guys view it as cheating or say it harms the relationship. I just don't see it as a big deal. I think if I'm not there and you want to get your rocks off that's fine. Just don't be so drained that if I come home wanting some you won't give it up. This of course is my opinion. So what do you guys say? Is masturbation ok in a relationship. Or is it ok under certain circumstances. If it's not ok why not? I'm just curious to see what other people think.

 By far my favorite position. Just something about riding/being ridden by a guy that always makes my dick super hard. I'll usually save this position for last because it tends to over excite me. Especially if the guy starts cumming. It's hard to explain really. I know other guys like doggy style, but not me. This one right here is and probably always will be my favorite.

 Shame this was taken with an outdated phone. The guy clearly has a killer body. Will say that the camera makes it look like he has no eyes because of the lack of contrast. We have come so far with phones.

 This is Jack Radcliffe fucking Rocky West. It's from Big Bear Trucking Company 2. Basically the scene plays out as a fantasy of Rocky's. Jack is asking for directions and walks off. Well in Rocky's mind he stayed and well fucked him. The movie isn't all that great (mainly because of terrible lighting), but this scene is one of the shining stars. If I can find it again I'll post it.

This seems like a vintage photo. Mainly because of the quality I guess. I also think that based on this guy's size. Seems like a lot of the bodybuilder types now are a hell of a lot bigger. Personally I like guys this size. Clearly muscular, but also nicely defined. Seems like they'd be more willing to have a good conversation with you about a lot more things than themselves or their workouts.

Videos

Some days I forget how lucky I am that you guys even get to see the videos I post. Today all but two of my videos had been deleted. There is a method to my madness. I hold off on getting some of these because (as we learned last week or so) it sucks when I post something only to have it gone from the blog an hour or so later. These should stand the test of time. Well the first two at least. First up is Adam Faust and Troy. Basically this is their "audition". Both men are supposedly new cummers and they are being put to the test. I will say that I do believe this is a legit screen test. I saw a lot of Adam shortly after this video came to late some time ago. Don't think I ever saw Troy in anything sadly. Next up is Cameron Cruise and Patrick Ives. As you can imagine this is a bareback film. That being said they don't do the cumming inside and squirting it out the ass thing. It makes me kinda sick to my stomach when I see that personally which is why I avoid them as much as possible. Anyway the two are very hot. Patrick Ives is so sexy and Cameron is a guy who knows how to bottom. Third up is a cautionary tale. If you live with your boyfriend and/or partner never leave for work without helping him out. Otherwise a delivery man will fuck him silly. Like you could leave that without at least sucking him off. Lastly is a treat. This is a majority of the movie Zeb and Mark Texas Two step. It features Zeb Atlas and Mark Dalton. They are new roommates who secretly lust for each other. Sadly the most you will see these two do is groping each other. This was before Zeb started doing more with guys.

Small victory

I know it's piety, but I had a small victory this morning. Buck viewed my adam4adam profile. This is a small victory because it means he's been wondering about me. He didn't click on it by accident since it's the same photo I always use. Now the thing that I always struggle with after a break up is staying away. I always want to try to talk to the guy or view their profile. No good of course comes of it, but I still look. Now yes he could be looking because he is now with someone (like I suspect he is) and wanted to see if I'm still single. No clue, but like I said it's a small victory. At this point I'm just taking it one day at a time. If he wants to be friends he can make the effort. If not then he'll just do what he's doing. As for me I'll find a guy who does want to be with me and has no problem introducing me to people he cares about. Also a guy who's actually gay too. That should be a big focus too. Anyway back to me. It's been a long week last week and today has been so long. Very slow at work. The holiday lull is here and it will be a pain to make it until January.

 I don't really get into the sex in public thing, but if I was with either of these guys I'm pretty sure I'd change my mind. This is from a site about sex on a bus. They get some pretty hot guys, but still. Sex in public just kinda weirds me out.

 One an interesting one piece. It's clearly meant to leave nothing to the imagination. If the back is any indication what the front looks like then look out. Honestly I think it would be kinda fuck to fuck a guy with this one.

 Caesar has aged very well. I've seen some of his early stuff and he was such a twink. Now he's a full blown daddy. Guess it goes to show that you never know how a guy will age. I think it helped that he bulked up big time since his first video.

This is Joe Thunder a.k.a. Apollo Phoenix. He's another straight guy that did some stuff for gay studios. This picture here seems like it would fit perfectly into a gay story line (or straight one I guess). Hiding below the pier looking for a guy that will take care of his raging hard on.

Videos

First up today is a video with Jack van dean. I do wish he was back doing porn. This is a scene from the movie matchmaker. Basically he plays a cop investigating a noise complaint. He find a naked man walking around. Yeah exactly what you think happens happens. I will say I think this was edited by the person that put it on xvideos. I don't remember it being so short. Also seemed to jump around a bit. Then again it's been awhile since I saw this scene. By far I think it's the best one in the whole movie. The next video will probably be the favorite of the day. If you like wrestling, older guys, threesomes, or muscular guys then you will find something in this scene you like. Basically it starts off with two guys wrestling. A third shows up and basically they double team the bottom of this scene. Quickly the underwear comes off and dicks get shoved in. The last two are both solos from muscle hunk. Both are pretty big guys. First up is Titan. Kinda no more I need to say. The guy is very well put together. Last up is Ted Durban. Also no as the guy with "the best pecs ever". There is a video of a webcam of a guy with amazing pec control. That would be this guy. The guy is huge. And he's even fucked himself with a dildo. Sadly not in this video. I don't know if he is or isn't gay or if he has or hasn't done anything with a guy on camera so please don't ask. Hopefully I'll be able to find more videos of him.

Time for the weekend

So this will be my first weekend being single. I'm actually doing pretty ok. Ted mentioned the other day that I seem a lot happier. I guess that's not shocking since being in limbo with Buck was so draining. I also feel better this morning. I think it's because I went out to the Olive Garden with Ted and we had a good time. We dished about our exes and how they lost out on two good guys. Basically the post break up stuff. I know I feel a whole lot better knowing that Buck really missed out. Not trying to sound full of myself, but he did. I didn't judge him based on his weight which other guys will. I didn't make him feel bad about not being able to stay hard. I was also very patient with the man. Things other guys really wouldn't do. Now the fact that he claims he's bi. A woman is going to be so much worse. She is going to be a hell of a lot more demanding. Not to mention the rumors about him are not good. I was talking to his former boss and co-worker and they said oh he kisses other guys all the time. Especially when he's drunk. Yeah a woman is going to be perfectly ok with that. So yeah feeling good. Probably going to go start dating again soon. Not going to let a jerk stop me from trying to find someone who actually wants to be with me.

 This is Ed and Jake Tanner. No Ed's last name isn't Tanner, but I couldn't remember his name. It starts with a D. Anyway I assume this is from the movie they did together called Muscle Ranch. For the most part it was a somewhat softcore video. Only jacking off, sucking, and a little rimming. Was kinda romantic as well. I have the video and it still bones me up every time. There is a scene where Jake rubs his hard dick on Ed's pecs. Makes me shoot or almost shoot every time. They don't make videos like that anymore. And hard to find guys with that good of chemistry anymore.

 I'm a big time romantic (obviously). I find this picture so adorable. Just a couple sitting in their underwear. Both guys are so adorable and sexy. You do know that after the picture was taking they got real dirty.

 I watched American Horror Story on Wednesday. The first scene basically had a guy moving in that had a body pretty similar to this. Without giving too much away one of the girls mentioned that he's probably so backed up he'd jizz his pants if she looked at him right. Or something to that affect. Basically the boy's mom was a bible thumper. Just would be so fun to corrupt a guy like this.

Every now and again I come across an image I like that then makes me think of my ex. Basically this guy reminds me of Coach. It's not him btw. This guy is a little slimmer. Both had very noticeable nipples and both had just a light coat of hair on their body. Funny how you do something without realizing you did it.

Told ya

I told you guys. I know a lot of you knew this fact, but for those of you who didn't I told you. What am I talking about you ask? Simple. Cody Cummings faked his fuck scenes. There was a recent documentary where he openly admitted it. You can find a post on it here on men of porn. This is why I don't post anything from Guys next door. I don't want them thinking that I support them in any form. I said right off that the first one didn't look right. I mean we are suppose to believe a "straight" guy can take a dick without so much as rimming or lube. The second one was way too dark and again had no close up. And honestly I didn't even know there was a third. The sad part is that I know there were people that believed it and shelled out money to. Bet they feel real stupid. I've said it many many times. Avoid anyone that says they are gay for pay. There are very few guys under this label that are legit. Zeb Atlas and Bo Dean are guys who actually fucked another guy and don't shy away from it. Both don't have to remind you how straight they are every two seconds. Cody Cummings is gone from gay porn finally. I just wish it was way sooner than it happened. I'm just amazed that no one at Next Door Studios had the balls to say, you know what no we aren't going to do this. We aren't going to fake a fuck scene and charge guys to see it. Plus with how Next Door treated Austin Wilde, the token gay guy, just done with that studio. The only way they could ever regain my trust is to make a public apology and attempt to make it up to all those who put any money into cody cummings' website. We all know they won't so it's just another studio I refuse to post stuff from.

 Kinda ironic that I posted this picture now that I think about it. This is Tommy Gunn. I've only seen him do a solo scene in a movie where straight porn stars jack off for the gay audience. He has not done anything with a guy besides maybe working a girl over together. Not 100% on that one. Anyway I like this picture. Seems like it's a setup for porn. Making this gay of course I imagine he's gotten out of bed with a major case of morning wood and instead of having his wife take care of it he sneaks out to the guest room to work his brother in law over. Once again this is pure fantasy the guy is straight and only done straight porn.

 Just a normal day at the beach. A huge sexy black stud is just hanging out by the rail. Must say he's very well built. Yum.

 There are some guys I think try too hard to be "bad" or "tough". This guy is one of them. Yeah he's got dog tags that are suppose to tell us he's been in the military and those pants are those you'd expect to see on a cop. Yet I don't get any intimidating vibes. If anything seems like if you'd chat with him he'd be a really nice guy. That's not to say he wouldn't take you down if you threatened his co-workers with a gun, but overall he's not a scary guy.

 Oh how I wish I knew what was going on. We can only assume he's jacking off right now. Yet I don't know what he's watching. Looks like his computer isn't on any porn video. Hell maybe he's fucking a fleshlight.

Videos

First up is Ace Banner. I've posted a video of him before. I will say he is one of my favorites on Legend Men not because he's the biggest guy, but because he clearly loves to jack off. And for the second time he came twice in the same scene. It's hard not to bone up when he starts moaning and feeling his body up. Next up is Matt Sizemore getting a lift. This is from a fake reality porn site called gay hitchhiker. They didn't have a lot of guys, but they "picked up" up guys and had sex with them in exchange for a ride. They all "pretended" to be straight and act like they never did this before. As we all know that is so not true for Matt. This was the first video of Matt's I ever saw so I totally that gayhitchiker was real until I saw other videos with the actors in it. Third up is Johnny parker. I found this shortly after I found the one he did for theguysite. I really need to find a video of him with another dude. If any of you find one of him with another guy (because he is gay) feel free to post the link in the comments. Last up, we have a group of guys having fun during the game. From what I can gather, a guy walks in on his dad and his dad's friends watching the game. And well we all know what happens next.

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So cold

I know winter isn't anywhere near close to starting, but I'm so cold today. I forgot to wear long sleeves again. The thing is that cold normally doesn't bother me, but I swear my nipples have gotten so sensitive lately. They are just uncomfortable. Plus I think it also has something to do with the fact I have no one to snuggle with. Also had an annoying conversation with Ted. And by conversation I mean me not saying anything wishing I could watch my show, while he talks about negative things which of course end up bringing me down. Had a friend call up to see if I was ok last night while he was on the phone talking to his ex wife. He then asks me who was that. And then insinuates that all the guys will be fawning over me now that I'm single. I said yes, but that's not necessarily a good thing. I mostly get bottom of the barrel types that live hours away and tell me they love me within a day of talking to me. Which of course got him going on and on about how the window for him is closing and blah blah blah. Last time I checked I'm the one that recently broke up and I'm pulling myself out of it. Don't need your baggage pulling me down too.

 If I saw this guy hitch hiking it would be very hard for me to not give him a lift. So many questions are going through my head. Like how did this guy lose his clothes and does he expect sexual interaction for giving him a lift. Worst comes to worse I help a guy out that had a little too much to drink the night before. And I got to see him naked.

 Well here's a sexy bear. I do like guys with facial hair mainly because of how it feels when I kiss them. I'm a very passionate kisser. I could come from being kissed just right. This guy could do it easy. Especially if he was kissing me while I was pounding that sexy ass.

 This feels like some sort of naughty story time circle. Like when you listened to someone reading in the library when you were a kid. This one takes place at an adult book store and clothes are prohibited.

Bench press has got to be the most sexually explicit exercise to spot. Well maybe squats are up there too. Clearly you know what's going to happen. You have a photographer taking the photo and no underwear being worn. Don't know which guy I would choose. Guess I'd have to go with both.

That was quick

So I updated my relationship status on some of the different sites I'm on and wow was I attacked. Not verbally attacked, but all of a sudden I had tons of guys paying attention to me. Had one guy who said I talked to him back when he was fat (wouldn't be able to tell he was) and of course I didn't recognize him. And pretty soon he's wanting us to text and all that jazz. Another one who I texted a long time ago started texting me again out of the blue. Telling me how awesome I am and nice I am and so on and so forth. Yes normally I'd love all the attention, but right now just seems like I'm just fresh meat being lowered into a tank of piranhas. I'd like to have a little time to be ok with me. Granted it was my mistake for even updating it. I still haven't done it on growlr or grindr. Just know if I do I'll get guys just wanting to hook up. I know that's probably what I need, but right now I don't want that. Just want to be ok with me. I guess I'm not the same guy as when I broke up with Coach. For one I felt like I was going to be alone forever after that one and I certainly wasn't ok with being single. Since I was single most of the time after the break up I've grown ok being single. Plus this one wasn't my fault. This was a guy who didn't have the balls to talk to me or tell me the truth from day one. As for my anger it's subsiding. Everyone I talked to has helped me realize I didn't do anything wrong. I wasn't wrong for wanting to work it out nor being forced to break up with him over texts. Also found out something I didn't know which is that he use to hit on a guy I know and use to (if not still does) kiss on the dj. So basically what I think happened is that he got scared and said he's "bi" because he's still not ok being gay. Sad thing for him is he'll realize it too late. Also it helps that it happened now and not after I used the L word or after we exchanged rings.

 You know when you see an image and just think that looks so dirty. Well if I had any photo shop skills I could totally make it look like the guy just shot a load or is getting sucked off. The fact that this image is even here means someone thought it was a good image and posted it. Probably should have run it by a 13 year old boy.

 This is Brock. He did 3 videos for sean cody. One where he was part of a group jack off contest, a solo video, and one where he got sucked off. This guy caused major issues for the guy that played the red ranger. I can't even type the name because still people get the two confused. Every time I mention Brock and the connection I get like 15 hits a week for a month looking into it. The funny thing is they really don't look like each other. Only very very very briefly.

 That is honestly one of my favorite positions. I like to lay on a guys chest while watching tv or just laying down. I try not to fall alseep in this position because I tend to snore and drool.

 This guy is Max Chevalier. He claims to be straight, but you'd never know it. The guy has fucked many guys and was even fucked on camera by Manuel Deboxer. He just seems to be so comfortable with guys. Basically like a Zeb Atlas that's french and actually been fucked by a guy. These are the type of guys I like to see. Where you really aren't sure that they are as straight as they claim and don't go around telling you how straight they are.

Videos

First up are three swimmers, Brendan Austin, Scott Ford, and Dean Tyler. Really no back story needed. They get it on in the locker room. Can't say I blame any one of the guys. Next up is Peter Latz. Sorry this video has no sound. I didn't upload it so don't blame me. To be honest I think no sound is a good thing. I just don't like his voice. It's hard to put my finger on why, but I just don't. Anyway the third video is of Antonio. Once again there is no video of Antonio "off season" so don't ask. He keeps his bodyfat real low all year. Anyway it's a pretty basic video. Antonio comes home, starts flexing, ends up in bed jacking off. Then we have a young zeb atlas cowboy. Not as big as he is now, but still a good size cowboy. Plus with his accent it's easy to see him in this role. I'd hire him as a ranch hand any day. Provide he never wears a shirt and sleeps in my bed. Last up is Rico Romano a.k.a. Rico Dulce. Yes he has done something with a dude under the name Rico Dulce for Blue Productions. I think I have a video of him with another dude somewhere. This one however is just a solo. Just him flexing in front of the mirror and jacking off. There is also a second part where he's in a pool hall.

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I could hit something

So it's pretty obvious that I'm just a little pissed off today. So Saturday once again I couldn't meet up with Buck. His brother was in the ICU with pneumonia. Ok I get it. Granted I had to find out about this on face book because he didn't tell me until I pressed him. Then I asked when could we talk about us. I of course got no response. He didn't say anything Sunday so I ended it. Now before you think I didn't try to work it out note that he changed his relationship status to "it's complicated" saturday.  All this without talking to me. He also didn't meet up with me on the 12th because he had a birthday party to go to, but still hadn't done anything for my birthday which was on the 1st. He didn't really say anything to me in the last month. So yeah I ended it because clearly he wasn't into it and wasn't going to tell me.
Well this morning I was mostly fine. Then I get a text from him. Basically it says he's bi and that he wanted to tell me in person and that I deserve someone better than him. Yeah no fucking kidding. I deserve a guy who will at least give me the respect to tell me something like this in person. There were plenty of times for him to tell me. He could have asked me over any time during the week. He could have asked me over on Sunday, but no he didn't. That is what I'm pissed off about. You wait until after I have to break up to tell me. In a text. That is what makes me want to punch something.
And before any of you say I'm "too young" for a serious relationship you have got to be kidding me. I'm 25 not 14. I've never been one to just hook up. I've always been a guy looking for something serious. Something I've said time and time again. According to every adult I know, I'm "very mature" for my age. I have friends who are married and have kids already. Some of those married are younger than me. Don't tell me I'm too young. And yes one of these friends is gay and has been with the same guy for over 4 years before the guy asked him to marry him. Now with all that said I need to just get Buck out of my system and move on. Feeling a little better writing this. Only a little. Still need to hit something a little.

 This is Hans Hoffman in contest condition. I've seen the video this comes from and he is RIPPED. Normally in a video he's still in decent shape, just not so vascular. If I ever find the video for you guys I'll post it. It's a real treat.

 I came across this picture and it really shocked me. At first I didn't know who it was then I thought that guy looks like Lee Priest. Oh but Lee doesn't have a face tattoo. He has a face tattoo now. I'm all for guy's with ink, but I do not like face tattoos. On anyone. Which is a shame because he has an amazing body and I've seen him in fitness magazines ever since I can remember. Just seems like you get judged unfairly in the bodybuilding circuit for having too much ink.

 This picture made me think of something I read awhile back. When the first Hulk movie came out (with CGI not Lou Ferrigno) there was a 10 inch Hulk doll that had a 2 inch dong in it's pants. And yes this was from a toy company. That's a pretty damn big dick when you think about it. For me who's 66 inches tall that would me I'd have a dick that's about 13.2 inches long. And we don't know if that's hard or soft. For Hulk who's about 96 inches tall (depending on which hulk) he'd have a dong that's 19.2 inches.

I'd love to suck this guy's dick while he sits back and enjoys his pipe. I don't know why that thought is so erotic to me, but it is. Also probably because that is a very nice dick.

Videos

First up is Eric Evans and Brent Baines. This is from back when they were a couple and it was pretty obvious that they were. When couples do porn I swear the porn is always hotter. Also helps I have a big thing for Eric Evans. Next up is the "straight" bodybuilder fucking himself with a dildo. In this one we don't see him cum, but again I just find this fun to watch. For one he has to let us know he's straight, yet becomes such a bitch when begging for cock and riding his dildo. Towards the end he even talks to a guy who teases him by telling him what he can expect when he gets a hold of him. I'm sorry you are "straight" and you get off on a guy telling you how he'd fuck you. At least call yourself bi. Third up is Mike buffalari. It's a solo video, but doesn't mean it's not fun to watch. Then it's Adam Russo and Park Willey. Hmm don't think I got the spelling for that last one right. Anyway Adam is getting a private lesson in Yoga from Park. Well you know where this goes. Will say the last line was cute. "What would you call that pose". And last up is a French daddy with a big cock daddy. I don't speak French so I have no clue what they are saying, but who cares. The guy has a very thick cock. Amazed at how well the bottom takes it.

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Thanks

I want to thank you guys that commented on my blog yesterday. Some days I post knowing no one will really actually comment on any thought I specifically am having that day. It's always nice to bounce an idea off someone. To answer the big burning question I've thought about staying and trying to work it out. The only problem is that it requires us to actually talk. We are going on the third day where he hasn't said a word to me. You see normally I text him morning and good night. He'd normally respond to both. Well over the past month I'm lucky to get anything after I say good morning and as for at night. Nope nada. So I've stopped. To see if he would see that something is wrong. Now anyone that knows me, knows I like routine. I tend to be very predictable. So when I do something out of the ordinary it's because something is clearly wrong. I use to send out a tip of the day to my friends every day. When I would miss a day, everyone would text me asking if something was wrong. In the several months Buck has known me I have texted him morning and night. I have not heard a thing from him. And it's not just that. It's the fact he hasn't sent me a photo teasing me in forever. He doesn't tell me when he goes to work, something he use to always do. All these things that he normally did he's stopped. Now I chalked it up to stress and depression, but all of that came on all of a sudden. I've had depression. It doesn't just come on. There are signs that something is up. He just stopped. No explanation. Once again we skipped a Saturday of not seeing each other. Now before I again chalked it up to him working Oktoberfest and being a bartender. I've been making excuses for quite some time. Now don't go thinking I haven't tried to get him to open up to me. I've talked to him and said I'm here for him. Nothing. He use to tell me if he had a job lead. I found out about the last one on facebook. He will openly discuss the president's healthcare law with his brother on his wall then text me hello or how are you.
So keeping all this in mind I was texting my friend last night. And he said something kinda out of the blue. He said I had a really good sixth sense. Which is funny because I always thought it sucked. Plus it's more of me looking at the situation logically rather than a gut feeling. He also mentioned that Buck could be pulling back because he's not emotionally mature to just end it. Once again I get a guy telling me I'm very emotionally mature for someone my age. Plus I was watching Girl Code, because it's funny and any insight to how women think will help me with female customers, and they were talking about getting dumped. In the later part of the segment they mentioned there are signs that a guy will break up with you. The big sign is that he becomes withdrawn. They then give crazy examples like if you had surgery and he sends you a get well card he's about to break up with you. They had a guy on that said yeah I'll act like a jerk to get you to break up with me. If I don't then you won't get over me. Which got me thinking. Yeah that's kinda how I am when a break up happens. I get very withdrawn. Don't respond like I use to. So I think it's happening and if it isn't then Buck better man the fuck up and start acting like he's in a relationship. Not just that but introduce me to your friends. I'm not asking for a ring or to meet your parents. Just to meet your friends. Last week when he went to the birthday party would have been the best time. I think he's just too far into the closet to really be in a relationship with a guy. Guess that's what happens when you are the first guy another guy dates.

 Cowboys will probably forever be a sex symbol. I think it has to do with the fact they are known to work with their hands. They tend to also have very nice bodies. Heck you'd even say that about farm boys.

 I do not know if this is a still from a movie so don't ask. Neeedless to say that this is of Titpig Hurley. He's kinda hard not to recognize. I still think he's a very sexy man. And is probably one of the reasons why I'm so obsessed with playing with a guy's nipples.

 I do not know who this is. If I was to guess I think he would make for a good Wolverine in an x-men porn parody.

This is Frankie Latz. He's the supposed older brother of Peter Latz. Shave the head and you'd probably see it more. I say supposed because there is a video of Peter jacking off watching a video of Frank and saying that's his big brother. And it's not like we haven't seen a couple pretend to be brothers.

How strong is it

I often wonder if I have a strong argument from time to time. As of yesterday I've sort of given up on trying to contact Buck. When my texts often go unanswered I kinda stop trying. I mean we use to text all the time. Now I know it can't be like when we were first dating, but you'd think I could at least get a hope you have a good day out of him. There have been 3 days (maybe 4) where I won't here a thing out of him. Yesterday he asked how my day went (yay) and I said slow and that was it. That was the entire conversation. He hasn't tried to meet up with me. I still to this day haven't met any one of his friends. He's met mine twice. Supposedly they know about me and asked to meet me, but no nothing. I swear we've drifted apart and it feels like I'm the only one who cares. I can't even find out when he has a lead on a job. I have to read about it on facebook. I would talk to him about it, but I haven't seen him in over 2 weeks. Again. His growlr doesn't even mention the "great/amazing" guy he's with anymore. Just says he's in a relationship which is weird. Just feel like he's wanting me to break up with him so he doesn't have to do it. Anyway I'm not wrong here right? Asking for a little communication here and there. Wanting to see my boyfriend who lives in town at least once a week. I mean I don't want to break up without at least talking about it, but at this rate I would have to say it to even get him to answer me. And even then he probably wouldn't. Just hate being in this limbo state. I can deal with something that happens. I can't deal with the crossroad I'm at now.

 I know I should know this guy's name, but I don't. I know he use to be all over xtube. Only found one of said videos. I figured he was a bottom, but this just confirms it. I bet fucking him is so much fun.

 I'd hire this guy to hold up any paint cans I have. Provided he's naked just like that. Then again like I wouldn't turn it into more. It technically wouldn't be prostitution since I paid him to hold cans. I didn't say he couldn't be naked and we both just happened to have sex together.

 This of course is Str8 Jeff. He's been running a cam site for quite some time. Even has his own lube that looks like his cum. Apparently some studios also use it to spice up a cumshot in a photo shoot if the guy doesn't shoot much. He's always struck me as a good guy. I've never seen him degrade any of his viewers or say anything super negative on twitter. He's a straight guy I really don't mind watching because he's so open and friendly.

This is big PJ. He's a very sexy Aussie. Awhile back he made a few videos and even had his own site. I went back recently and looks like the domain is now up for grabs. He is a sexy guy. Even sexier when he lets his body hair grow out. If I find anything of his I'll post it, but sadly there are so few out there. That might be why his site is gone. Not enough viewers. He seemed to update it regularly, but then again that could have just been an illusion.