Should have seen it coming

So yesterday some news actually happened. I was chatting with Matt and well we both kinda slowly came to the same conclusion. We were talking about how we enjoy hanging out with each other and can't wait to do it again when it got kinda serious. It's pretty obvious that we both are shy about moving forward. We don't want to move too fast because we have had so many guys that seem interested then disappear. We don't want the friendship to go away, but wouldn't mind seeing what happens down the road. I'll admit I can be very oblivious to things. Maybe we will hang out this weekend.
I know that there was a lot I was worried about with Matt. For one he doesn't have a car. At the time we were talking I was also talking to a John who also didn't have a car. The difference between the two is that Matt at least has a job. Matt does also use the city bus system to get around. And he lives by himself. I also know that he is older than me. He's 36 and I'm 24. That was really stretching the limit of the age bracket I want to date. It has nothing to do so much with thinking guys over 40 or 50 aren't attractive or great guys. It has to do with the fact that the youngest guy I dated was 42. I just didn't want to feel like I was settling for a guy.
Most of the guys my age have this idea of what the guy they will date will be. Even those that say that they look more for the personality than the looks. I will include myself in that. I'm not going to lie to you all. I would love a muscle bear closer to my age to come by and sweep me off my feet. Well that's not going to happen and in the process of waiting for one I'm going to miss out on some really good guys. Ted saying he could see himself dating Matt kinda scared me. I would like to get to know Matt better and possibly romantically, but at the same time Ted rarely shows interest in a guy and not like I don't have time. I guess my knee jerk reaction should have been an indicator of how I felt.
Guess I got to get out of this mindset of I have to find a guy that makes me happy and will appeal to the masses. What I mean is that I stop looking for a guy who's my age. Or a guy that is super buff. Just look for a guy that makes me happy. That's been my big problem in the pass. I'm too worried about not looking like it's a daddy son relationship or like I'm some gold digger. If he makes me happy that's all that should matter.

 See this would be torture to me. Not sure if you can see it with the picture as is, but the guy sucking dick is wearing a chastity device. Yeah that would kill me. To suck dick and not be able to play with my own.

 Now this is interesting. Would have a lot of fun with this guy. He just has that "I'm your daddy" vibe which does make me week in the knees. Not to mention his dick looks very suckable.

 We all have tried this and we know it. It's a skill that honestly I think is only hot if you are doing it. In porn it doesn't do anything for me. The closest I ever got was licking the head of my dick. Would be a nice skill to have so you can kinda practice your oral technique. Should have done gymnastics.

Gotta love bara images. They can truly make things how out of proportion as the artist likes. I mean that guy looks so hunt that he truly does have a third leg. Must be fun to find pants. Very muscular build too. The little red right under the eyes is suppose to show that he has something to be embarrassed about. Nothing about that whole situation is embarrassing.