Still in disbelief

The video post is here fyi. I know I need to snap out of this before I start doing a self fulfilling prophecy. I mean every time I talk to Coach or am held by him or kiss him I just can't believe we are a couple. I mean I believe it, just can't believe how fortunate I have become. You all have seen his pictures. He's very in shape and planning on getting bigger. Growing up I always hoped I'd get a boyfriend like Coach and now I do. I just keep pinching myself hoping I never wake up, but I better stop or I'll just be one big bruise or scary enough wake up. It's like in the first episode of season 4 of RuPaul's drag race. What's her name was just this starry eyed doe in headlights and eventually was let go because of it. I know Coach wouldn't do that, but there is modesty and then there is fishing for compliments. I think I'll start believing it when September 20th hits. That's when my mind will finally get rid of that last bit of doubt since a month is when things normally go sour. I don't see that happening obviously, but sadly we all have that negative nelly in the back of our heads. I mean guys who see our pictures think we look cute together. I sent an e-mail to a friend back in Texas and he said:
perfect couple,,, about the same height,,, both love tatoos,,,, both like to work out,,,, and he looks like the type that is a protector,,, if that makes any sense,,,, your nips even look a bit excited to be near him,,,, lol...
Just note that last part was him talking about the picture. And my nips always look like that, although I'm always excited to be near Coach. So snap out of it brain be happy. We have a guy who loves us and we love him.
On a different note I was talking to this guy I met awhile ago. We never did anything, but he is very interesting. I told him I'm seeing someone and he said good for me, but he was still looking and time was running out. He's 30 going on 31. I wanted to tell him what his exact problem is, but well no one really listens when you call them out on their shit. You'll recall I talked about him some time ago. He wants a boyfriend, but he is very very picky. I understand that as guys we do need to be physically excited with our partner, but there does need to be something there as well. With him he's looking for a lot of superficial stuff. For instance on all his profiles he says he wants a guy who his height/weight proportionate. Basically he's looking for a guy that is in the green range of the BMI. As we all know the BMI is not designed for guys who are muscular so basically he's looking for a twink. Yes he isn't looking for a twink. No he wants a muscular straight acting guy. Yes I hate the use of "straight acting" to describe a gay guy to. The only porn he will watch is where the top is straight and gay for pay. So basically next door studios stuff. All this because he doesn't like the gay community. He says that we are all douche bags. Well he said most gay guys are douche bags, but you get my point. So you can see how it would be hard to find someone that fits his description. And if you look at his picture he looks like a stereotypical gay guy. The irony of it all. So I said you should open up your age range a bit. Well he's done that. I was going to say more, but figured he's at the age where if he hasn't figured it out he will when it's too late and nothing I say is going to help.
I'll admit I'm less on the picky side and well it got me a guy. Yes I'm clearly physically attracted to Coach. He is basically my perfect guy physically. Then I got to get closer to him emotionally and that's what has allowed me to become his encourager. He wants to get bigger and I'm not going to stop him. I have a wide range of what I'm attracted to physically. If Coach wanted to slim down then go for it. He's still the same man on the inside just with a smaller outside. If he wants to get bigger then that's just more to love. If he wants to get hairy then yay I get a pelt to pet. If he wants to shave then that just means I can lick him all over with less hair in my mouth. When we aren't willing to be flexible in what we like physically we miss out on something big. There are nice guys around here who he will never give a chance because his physical standards are so high and he's looking for a guy emotionally who will never want a relationship other than as a fuck buddy.