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First up today is a video called Priority Male. In this movie there is a letter addressed to one of the guys living in the house and of course it leads to tons of sex. It is a very lame plot line, but the guys and the sex was pretty hot. It's a shame that Catalina no longer exists. They had horrible scripts, but they always seemed to get some hot guys. Next up are two guys fucking in a bar. Nothing to really add for this one. The guys are hot and so is the sex. Next up is Tom Katt fucking Jim Slade. I'm going to apologize right now for the fact that this is a bad Spanish dub.  You are pretty much better off turning the sound off because it gets distracting. This is from a Blue Blake movie (forget the name) where jim and Tom are boxers and they also happen to be boyfriends. Next up is a fantasy threesome. You find out about that at the end of the scene. Basically a guy gets caught sucking off a sleeping guy and well yeah. I've kinda had a fantasy like this back in the day. Last up is a Flip flop scene with coach post match. I honestly would have done more sports. Just do well and get to fuck your coach. Hell a lot of young boys would have done sports if that was the outcome.

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Before I begin I just have to address something. Yes I do use a lot of slang. I grew up in Texas where we use it a lot. I'm going to try to not use it so much, but I can't guarantee that I'll succeed. I will say that if you are using a translator program then that can also be the problem. They tend to translate literally. Well I have a possible treat today. If all videos work (3 are redtube which means I don't know if they really work) then there are seven videos. First up is the video I mentioned in the regular post. In this scene a professor calls one of his former students to get a book he lent the student back. We find out that the two were actually lovers. This scene is very hot. I don't know if these two are or were a couple, but their chemistry on screen would say yes. This scene is all about the eroticism. The kissing goes on for quite some time before the clothes really come off. There is no crazy music track. It's just the two of them. I had to share this one today instead of sitting on it for a month or two. Next up is HairyAlaskanArtist and bikerbearcub. This one is called Afternoon Delight. The two are clearly friends with benefits. They know each other very well and it's very hot to watch. Hell you'd think they were a couple the way they keep going at it. And man can that guy shoot. Third up is a Hunk threesome. Really no lead up to this one. Just three guys attracted to each other and having some hot sex outside. Then we have Hairy Artist playing Coach. Basically he made a deal with you his player and you won. Now he has to torture his nipples which of course leads to a big boner and a huge load. Now I'm not sure if these next two still work. Again for some reason redtube does not show up when I preview the post. If it's still there then the fifth video is with Josh Powell and Brad Stone. If you like muscular guys then well you will of course love this one. I will say it's a shame that they are shaven down. A little bit of body hair would make it all the hotter. Then the second redtube video is a threesome with Marc Dylan, Harley Everret, and Jimmy Durano. It starts off with an innocent wager on a game of Darts. Well of course marc ends up losing and soon the guys are nude and sucking each other off. Certainly a very hot threesome. Last up are Boxers fucking in gym. Just remember guys and girls I didn't upload the video. The person who did got the Spanish dub so the voice you hear are over the actual dialog. If you speak Spanish then it's no big deal, if you don't then just turn the sound off. It's a very hot video that's for sure.

Videos

First up is coach jacking and cumming. I can not remember this guy's username. I can tell you that the guy is a major shooter. This is apparently him in his bulking phase. And I think he looks good. Supposedly he hadn't been getting tons of praise. Next up is a Turkish hunk threeway. And when I say hunks I mean hunks. Just the right build and hair. And boy do they seem to be into it. Now as for the last two I'm not 100% sure they are still around. Sadly my preview page is doing it's annoying block everything phase. Only the xtube and xvideos seem to work. If they are still there then the third clip is a very romantic bath fuck. Two guys getting it on in the bath. Nice and wet fuck. Can't complain about that. Lastly would be Shay Michaels getting fucked. Recently Shay has been mostly a top and it's kinda easy to see why but he did some videos where he bottomed. And the thing is the guy works well as a top or a bottom. Really doesn't matter.

Did not see that coming

So I got an interesting surprise the other day. On Saturday Ted's daughter friended me on facebook. That's not the surprise btw. I was on my phone so I went to go accept her request. I had a previous friend request from some random girl so I was expecting to see two requests. I had three. I accepted Ted's daughter, but shockingly Coach sent me a friend request. Now for those of you who don't know who that is, Coach was the guy I dated after Ted. There was a bunch of drama that happened as a result. You can look at last year's posts from about August of 2012- October of 2012. I was shocked because Coach made it clear he didn't really want to do the social media thing. So that was a shock of course. Then the fact that he sent me a friend request as well. There is also the fact that my phone didn't alert me to the request making me wonder if it was sent around the time Ted's daughter sent me one. Well it gets more bizarre. There is a woman in Coach's profile picture. I thought she looked familiar so I checked his profile out on my phone. I see he's gotten heavily religious and still comes off pretty head strong. Then I found it. He had a post saying that all bodybuilding photos are G rated since [insert woman's name here] wants me all to herself. Yep he's dating a woman. Again for those of you that were with me during the whole Coach dating thing (like Adam who already expressed his disbelief) will find this quite shocking. Coach is a guy who did actually do one of those pray away the gay type camps. He then said (at the time we were dating) that they were a form of abuse. He also criticized gay men who dated or married women for not being true to their selves. I can only imagine what he would have said if I ever had told him I was bi. Actually I think we did discuss that at one time.
Well the story continues to get weirder. I finally checked his profile out on my computer. He is engaged to this chick. At this point there were so many things I wanted to say. Figuring this is why he wants to be friends. If I was to accept he'd invite me to the wedding and blah blah blah. Then it hit me. It's not my life and I'm not dating him. I'm not seeing him on the side or anything like that. I don't know how those two are together. Plus me judging his relationship with this woman is in no way better than when he judged my dads (they aren't my real dads, but they are like fathers to me) open relationship. Just like how he judged Ted and others. Yes I find it shocking and a bit hypocritical, but those are natural responses when you find out that your ex boyfriend is not only dating a woman, but planning on marrying one. I had my chance with him, and it didn't work out. If he's happy with this woman, then who am I to judge? I know you guys will judge him 9 ways to Sunday (a weird expression don't you think?), but that's y'alls choice. Right now the only choice I have is if I will or won't friend him on facebook. The fact that he is dating a woman means he's less likely to get preachy on my profile and if he does I can always delete it and unfriend him. If he invites me to the wedding, I will just decline because I don't think it's appropriate. Me the ex being their not him marrying a woman. Writing this helped me to get all my judgement out. If he was to ask me about it now I can honestly say I was pretty shocked that you were on facebook, wanted to add me, and that you are engaged to a woman, but that's your choice. I am in no position to judge another person or their relationship and leave it at that. I think I'll sit on the friend request a little longer then accept it. I guess for me at this point, it's about not holding onto the past. If Coach has truly grown then ok. We'd never be go out friends who go out every Friday night, but we could be civil towards each other.

 I personally don't have any intention of being nude outside. That being said I wouldn't mind coming across this guy and having him help me rethink that policy. I don't know his name and if I did I promise I would say so. Please don't ask.

 I've become such a butt guy. Like everyone I do have my favorite type. These three all seem like I'd go for. Yeah I like a nice muscular ass, but sometimes a natural one is just as hot.

 This guy is of course is Carl Hardwick. One of the faces of the former Colt Studio. I maintain that he was one of the best. Especially because around the time he was popular so many guys were shaving. Yes he went back and forth, but he was kinda bodybuilding on the side. Plus he would be hairy a lot of the time which we all appreciated. Still want him to do one final video.

 I'm not a beer drinker or cigar smoker, but I certainly would partake in that dick of his. I really do enjoy sucking a guy while he's relaxing. Thank you porn for that.

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First up is the massive Doc Rock fucking. This is the latest thing I've seen him do, so I'm wondering if he's decided to not do gay porn anymore. The funny part of this whole movie is that Doc uses his dick to help the guy get over his addiction. I'm sorry, but that would start up a whole new addiction for me. This next clip proves that while the coach is away the players will play. It's a duo scene that eventually becomes a threesome. It's a pretty good scene since it's kinda believable. Well that one guy is the coach and the other two actually play a sport. Then it's time to have fun with the stripper. After a little strip show one guy goes into fantasy mode and wham there you go. This is kinda one reason why I'd never want to be around a stripper. I don't know how to act. Plus all that ass in face and oiled up body would lead me to bone up and then I wouldn't know what the protocol is. This next scene is with Dean Coxx and Marco Paris. This is more of just a nice sensual clip. There is no cumshot. Just a lot of rubbing and bathing and kissing and what not. I only post clips like this if they are good boner material. Lastly is my porn boyfriend Rocky La Barre. This is the solo he did for Pantheon Bear. If you are going to watch any clip today make it this one. He's mostly looking directly at the camera and talking dirty. It's a very verbal scene. I just find his voice so sexy and the little scenes he sets up are so hot. Then once he gets you all worked up he watches some porn and blows. You can hear it going. And big plus is that it's gay porn. One thing that annoys me is when you can hear porn in the back ground and you just know it's straight stuff. It's a personal pet peeve.

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Slow Monday

I had a great weekend with Coach, but man am I having a long Monday. So I guess I should back track. After finishing work I went over to Coach's place where he made us tacos and bought a cheesecake. It was so nice to just sit there with him and just chat and laugh. It was such a great date all around. I really can't point to any specific part and say that was my favorite or no that was.

We watched Queer as Folk and snuggled for a little bit before getting frisky of course. If some of you recall this was the weekend Coach was suppose to top me. Well we talked about it and decided me being the top just seems right for right now. Maybe 6 months from now or a year from now it will be different, but for right now I'm the top. I certainly have no objection either way. I love being with Coach wither I'm the top or the bottom. I think honestly I did put a lot of pressure on him to top me. I know he'd disagree with me on that, but it is how I feel. I mean I asked him to make it my b-day gift. I think for me what meant the most is that he really wanted to try and he seemed disappointed that he couldn't. The look in his eyes was just so caring and thoughtful. Just means I get more practice at his bubble butt. Plus I get to call him my butt boy now. With that pressure off that we went back to me topping and him bottoming. I had the best orgasm in a LONG time. I like to let the bottom guy cum first. It has to do with me wanting to pleasure my partner. Then once he's done or while he is cumming I shoot. Well not this weekend. I came first and I didn't even have time to pull out (I did have a condom on), then Coach came a short time later.

Speaking of Coach he's definitely bigger. Last time I saw him he was 184ish and this time he was about 195ish. Boy was he more solid. Like hugging a brick wall. And of course he plans on getting bigger. Must say at close to 200 lbs he's pretty solid and thick. I think I'll be creaming my pants if he even looks at me at 300lbs. I mean if he's flexing his ass and you spank him it hurts...you. He's even picking me up with a whole lot less effort. Oh and I have new lifting stats to post today:
CURRENT LIFTING STATS: Working bench press for reps 245lbs
Squats 245lbs
Deadlift 300lbs
Romanian deadlift 280lbs
Barbell curl 105lbs
Shrugs 285lbs
Overhead barbell shoulder press 130lbs
Barbell rows 155lbs
Upright row 90lbs
Close-grip bench press 175lbs
Dumbbell concentration curl 40lbs

After lifting weights (and me giving him some encouragement in a few different ways) we went outside and let the cats out. Ok what is it in the outdoors that makes cat's flip out. Tiger who looks so polite just sitting there becomes MEAN outside. My job was to keep him out of Coach's neighbor's yard. Well I was doing fine until he trotted past me. I pick him up and bring him back to the yard. I didn't hold him for long, but my spidey sense tingled. He was starting to tense up and I could feel his claws coming out so I let him down once we were in the yard. Well he puffed up good shortly after. Then while dealing with that Brenden decide that he was afraid of me all of a sudden and ran from me every time I got near him. This is the same cat that will paw at me at the table wanting me to pet him. Well I'm chasing down Brenden trying to get him back into Coach's yard (he crossed the street) Coach was trying to get Tiger to take him inside. Well Tiger wasn't feeling it and decided to do some scratching and biting. Coach showed me and apparently what he got on his hand was child's play compared to one other time when it happened where Tiger got most of his right arm and nose. Then as soon as everyone was in they calmed down and went back to being all lovey dovey. Speaking of which pumpkin (the youngest) sure has grown attached to me. I'm not complaining mind you, just an observation. He spends a lot of time around me when I'm laying down. Then again it could be cause I'm on his side.
 Well I feel better now writing and reliving all that. Am ready to go back to my apartment and take a nap.

A little bit of thinking

Tomorrow is my big date with Coach and I'm of course super excited. I was edging this morning and I couldn't help but notice something. In porn from latin countries there is a whole lot more touching and affection then you see in a lot of things that come from the US. Well that got me thinking about something I heard the other day. The Today show was taking a look at what different Hispanic people have done and one was talking about how she made this glove to help premature babies adapt to being touched since most premature babies gain an aversion to touch as they get older. She said that she is Hispanic she grew up in a culture that does a lot of touching. Well that clicked for me. In the US we aren't that into touching. I remember reading a paper in one of my classes about how a French boy got in trouble for hand holding or hugging or something in school. Well he grew up where you kissed on the cheek, hugged, and showed a lot more physical affection. I think that's one reason why there is so much anger and animosity in our culture. We are so busy trying to make money that mothers can't feel comfortable being with their kids for longer than a few weeks before going back to work. We learn early on in kindergarten to keep our hands to ourselves. We learn to stay in our own bubble and not to enter anyone else's without permission. We are scared into not touching each other by learning about sexual harassment. Two people can't really hugged without it being assumed they are a couple. It's no wonder why you can rarely find a child who has a secure attachment to a caregiver. Basically a secure attachment refers to how a child's needs have been met early on in their development. The worst of the worst is dysfunctional attachment which usually shows neglect or child abuse. A lot of us have C attachments which is right above the dysfunctional attachment. We had our needs met, but nothing above and beyond that. Hence why we have trouble with physical affection.

Well all of this brought me up to advice I gave one of my dads. I said to make sure to spend at least 10 minutes uninterrupted doing some form of physical contact. It doesn't have to be sexual like holding hands, cuddling, massaging, etc. Well this also got me thinking. I should do some sexperiments on Coach. My mind actually does work like this on a lesser scale. It's just more erratic in thinking since I'm on Hemo Rage. How I made that big jump was that it was advice I heard from the movie Hope Springs and that got me thinking about the sexercises in the movie, which got me to think of some sexperiments. Now these won't be cruel things like can we have good sex without touching or something crazy like that. Just different things that I've seen or thought of that might enhance sex. And to make it a true sexperiment, Coach won't know about what I might or might not do ahead of time. I'll also be sharing the results with you the readers. The reason being is that sometimes it's nice to get new ideas. No two guys are alike and no two couples are alike, but you may read something that you want to try. For instance I like to rim, but when I'm getting rimmed it's a toss of the coin. Sometimes it makes me nearly cum and other times I find it annoying. The only way I learned that was to sexperiment. One thing I have learned that seems to work on guys universally (least the several I've tried it on) is to kiss and softly suck on a guy's adam's apple. Maybe it's not so much what I'm doing, but how I'm doing it, but give it a try. You do have to be careful cause if you do it too hard it might choke him. That one is a freebie. I'm not sure what I'm going to try on Coach this weekend, but I think he'll enjoy it whatever I choose and if he doesn't he won't know I did it until Monday.

What a weekend

Sorry for no blog update on Saturday. I had laundry and stuff to do so I got a little side tracked. Didn't get a chance to write something out before I left to go be with Coach. It was such an amazing weekend. My eyes opened on quite a few things.
I drove up to Coach's place and from there we went to a nice bar and grill. It was very nice. Not only was the food good (and a lot of it), but they even had a salad bar. If I had known how big my sandwich was going to be plus all the fries I wouldn't have had any salad. We then visited Coach's mom's grave. It was a beautiful tombstone. We also walked around the church which was huge. I've never been in a catholic church, and must say I don't think I will again unless I have to. It's really big and intimating.
We then picked up a cheesecake (I was joking with him that if he was ever to eat most of my cheesecake I'd bite his arm off) and then did a workout in his home gym. Must say it is going to take some getting use to working out with him. I say that because I couldn't stop boning up while he was working out. Yes it's true I'm 23 and that stuff happens, but it does make it hard to focus. Pun slightly intended. And I'll include updated stats towards the end of this post cause with a bit of my pushing he upped some of his lifts. The joys of having a boyfriend to show off for ;). From there we get started on Queer as Folk. Well started for a few minutes before we decided that we both were a bit worked up so to speak. I normally choose not to mention our sex life, but well this is both funny and hot and I got permission to share it. So he was on top of me and I was talking dirty to him. Calling him my muscle coach playing with his jock. Well he starts really getting into it and starts yelling, "for the team! yeah for the packers!" and boy did he shoot. It was a big load for anyone. Needless to say it was one of our better sessions and they seem to get better and better every time we are together. That's pretty much the only time I'm going to mention me and Coach's sex life so enjoy.
After a few episodes of Queer as Folk we snuggled and talked and it was just nice. Felt great to just be in his arms and have my head on his chest. To be able to kiss him any time. It was great. And sleeping with him was great. Then some weird stuff started to happen. All of a sudden Coach started barking. At first I thought he was just doing it because he felt me stir and realized I was awake. Then he kept doing it and I kinda hit him a little. Then he just kept doing it and then he stirred and said did I say something? Well Coach apparently talks in his sleep (and in this case barks). I said no you didn't say anything, but you were barking. He started laughing and said really? I said yeah you were barking I thought you were joking at first. Well he laughed more and said he had this dream where he was wearing his leather collar and I was holding his metal chain and walking him around the house like a dog. I then told him to chase the cats and he barked at them. I then said that was too loud and gave him a little swat with a riding crop. He then barked a little quieter. Now I find this funny for a completely different reason. At this time I would like Coach to skip a head cause I know he's reading this and I don't want to spoil the surprise. I'll give you a sign of where you can continue. So the reason I find this so funny is because I was recently watching the first season of True Blood. No Coach keep skipping ahead. If you don't want any of the first season to be spoiled skip ahead. Anyway Sam and Terra decide to sleep with each other. Well Sam barks in his sleep, but for a completely different reason. The reason being that he's a shape shifter who likes to turn into dogs. And that's why I found it way too funny. Here's the sign: ok coach you can start reading again. All and all it was a good sleep. Now for the other weird thing. Tiger (the one that thinks he's people and sits at the table like in the picture) decided he wanted to lick my head. If you've never had your hair licked by a cat then hope you don't. It was just this weird feeling. Kinda like sandpaper on your hair. He didn't get to the scalp, but it was just weird. Then he jumps down and walks out the room.
After that me and Coach slept in on Sunday.Was very nice to just lay there under the covers and snuggle some more. Then I started getting a little frisky, but Coach wanted me to be good since we were going to workout once we did finally get up. You have no idea how hard that was. We got up and started getting ready to workout. It was chest day today and that makes it even harder to be good. While doing sets we both also decided it was time to update our bear profiles to say who we were dating. Just get all the back talk and under handed dealings out of the way. Sadly I've already gotten a taste of those. I'll talk about that tomorrow. This is a happy post and don't need those people bringing it down. Anyway we also had lunch and watched some more All in the Family (saw an episode on Saturday too) then decided to get dressed and go for a walk. Coach wanted to me to meet a few of his neighbors. We went to a park where Coach almost effortlessly picked me up (after doing a personal best with his chest routine). Yeah I clearly got to put on some weight to give him a bit more of a challenge. We then got back watched two more episodes of Queer as Folk before I had to go. I wanted to get back home before it got dark. I didn't tell Coach this (a little too late now), but I was pretty down leaving. I was pretty close to tearing up. I had to go home a different way to make sure I didn't focus on the fact I was leaving a man I love so much.

I meant to get some updated pictures of Coach to share, but well I got side tracked. I was too busy focusing on him and us. I did say I wanted to get the pictures, but we just didn't get around to it. We had fun holding and kissing and talking. Shame cause I do have updated stats and wish I had a picture of him to go along with them. Anyway here are the new lifting stats:
Working Bench Press: 235lbs
Squat: 235-250 lbs
Romanian Deadlifts: 260 lbs
Barbell Curl: 85-95 lbs
Barbell Shrugs: 250-265 lbs
Overhead Barbell Shoulder Press: 120 lbs
Concentration Curls: 40lbs
The bench press went up while I was there. It was actually pretty awesome. I really felt like his encourager at that moment. Trying to get him to push harder. It was just so great. I'm sadly not at the point where I feel comfortable lifting in front of Coach, mainly cause I haven't mastered keep the blood flow away from my lower head. Plus I find the smell of Coach all sweaty very arousing. That actually is a big deal for me since I'm so scent sensitive. I can easily be turned off by the smell of some guys. There was a guy I was with awhile back in Texas who just had the rankest breath. I mean just so gross. Coach is the complete opposite. He 1. always makes sure his breath is fresh and 2. I like his scent. We can't change our natural scent. Coach has a very nice natural scent that you can smell even if he puts on a little of that Bod spray on.
The last thing I want to talk about before I wrap this up is a comment that a guy name Matt gave on Friday's blog post:
Hey man, I've been reading your posts for a few months now, and I'm so glad to read along with the evolution of your relationship. I first found your blog and got hooked on your taste in... um... videos:) But as you have grown in your relationship, so has the depth of your posts, and I'm honored to be a part of your online world lol. I'm growing into my first relationship as well, and it has been the most hectic roller coaster of my life. It will be a year in November, and it is strange to think about how much we have gone through and we dont even have an anniversary under our belts! Reading about your life is helpful to me, and reminds me that we are all a work in progress and we have to live in order to grow. Thanks for caring enough to share and I wish you the best in your new life with Coach:)
I want to personal thank Matt for saying that. Thanks to guys like Matt, Adam, my dads, and others who have been supportive I've been able to grow. I'm very self critical and doubt my own feelings a lot of the time, but when you hear some validation like that up there it goes a long way. Thank everyone for the comments.
In closing I got two songs from Coach. He sent them to me this morning well I'm sharing them cause both are appropriate for today. Can't wait for our date on Wednesday. I enjoy every minute I spend with that man. I know he always has my back. He's my pit bull that barks in his sleep.

Evolution is a must

Tomorrow is my over night date with Coach and I'm super happy. For multiple reasons. The reasons all center around one thing really and that's change. You got to embrace it or you'll be left behind.

The first is that I updated my iPhone's software yesterday and it's pretty cool. It moves a lot faster and has a feature that I really like. I get e-mails on my phone, but with the new software you can actually set people as your VIP contacts. E-mails from this person will automatically be pulled into a separate section making them easier to find. Needless to say Coach is the only VIP contact I have. So not only can I stop guessing as to when Coach sends me something, I actually get notifications letting me know he e-mailed me. That is pretty nice. Sometimes when I have my computer up, I have a tab for the e-mails, but I only check it every now and again. Now I know the second I get an e-mail from Coach so I can respond quickly. If I hadn't updated my software I wouldn't have found that neat little feature.
I also learned how to finally save voicemails on my iPhone. Well I should say from my iPhone. If you have one you know that your phone will delete voicemails older than 30 days. Normally this didn't bother me, but I do like to hear Coach's voice every now and again. Not to mention I'd like to have them just to have. So instead of trying to look at my phone for answers I googled it. I can say I now have Coach's voicemails on my hard drive. Now I just have to put them somewhere for safe keeping just in case something happens to my comp. Better safe than sorry.
The big reason why I'm happy is that me and Coach's relationship is evolving. It's getting more stable and we are getting more comfortable with each other. We both aren't trying to hide things from the other. We embrace each other's past. I was talking to him on the phone yesterday and he had mention that he needed to tell me about one of his past lovers. I said I'd love to hear about it. I could hear the smile over the phone. He's been with guys in the past that just don't want to hear about that stuff. I understand not wanting to hear about your bf's exes on the first date, but you can't ignore someone's past. They are an ex for a reason. Talking about them won't make your bf suddenly fall in love with them again. Plus it works both ways when you think about it. Yet all that isn't the best part. The best part is that we are spending the night together tomorrow. Yes we've done that before, but I have a feeling that this time is going to be different. We both are secure in each other. I'm finally past that mental road block that wouldn't let me be happy until a month had past. And Coach did really well on his tests so we have even more reason to celebrate and be happy.
The last thing on this topic is basically Ted. I'm not going to say what I am to make you guys dislike Ted even more than you already do, but more as a topic of conversation. It's something that we all need to think about. Especially in the dating world. Ted expressed his feelings about me staying over at Coach's last night. He expressed that he felt it was too soon. He has old fashioned values of only sleeping with someone you love. He was worried that if Coach ever said he loved me (I haven't told him that we have both said we love each other because well it's Ted and he's not ready to hear that yet) it would probably because I'm good in bed. Ok wait that last part didn't come out right. He said I'm a gentle and passionate lover and that he's afraid Coach would feel that and then say he loves me for a superficial reason. Ok that sounds a little better. Well after he pouted for a bit he finished the night saying he isn't my keeper and that he's sorry if what he said hurt me (it didn't). He just feels sad over what I'm doing. So here is where my limited empathy comes in. Basically Ted is throwing the straight view on sex into a gay relationship. He grew up with the view that you have sex (with a woman) only after you are married. Well that doesn't work in gay relationships because (wait for it) us same sex couples can't get married in a lot of states. So that argument kinda gets thrown out the window.

It's putting straight logic into a gay relationship that is his problem. He's got to evolve. I'm not saying he should fuck every guy that smiles at him or go into a porn store and suck every guy off at a glory hole. I'm saying that he has to understand that two guys are more sexually charged than a guy and a girl or 2 girls. Our genitalia is on the outside. It's very easy stimulated and is based off of sight. We gay men have to do a very delicate balancing act. If a relationship is based off of sex alone then it won't survive. If we have a relationship on just emotion with no sex it affects our self esteem and eventually leads to finding something that is physical. Ted is right he isn't my keeper and he's not in my head. I love Coach and Coach loves me. If I felt he was just using me for sex then we wouldn't have come this far. We wouldn't e-mail and talk on the phone and on bear everyday. We wouldn't be content just snuggling or holding each other. He wouldn't be telling all his friends and family about me and I wouldn't be doing the same. I know that there is more there and so does Coach and that's all that matters. Hopefully some guy can open up Ted's mind. If not then that's fault for not evolving. Evolution is a part of life. Either you evolve or you get left in the dust with all the predators.

Special Date for a Special Day

Today is September 20th. For most of you it's not a special day, but for me and Coach it means we've been dating for a whole month. I was wondering why I've been so upbeat today. I had to do banking and have had a headache so the significance of the day was lost on me until I went through some of our old e-mails that I haven't archived yet. Plus coach has a test today so we haven't really been focusing on the day, but it is a special day. I'm sure he forgot too with his test. Nothing wrong with that when both of us had stuff we had to do today. We aren't going out today, but I am staying over on Saturday. We have a very nice date planned for Saturday so our Anniversary date has just been pushed back 2 days. We are going to a nice restaurant (just went through the menu not too long ago and know what I want), then to visit his mother's grave, then back home for some alone time. There is so much I want to do on this date. Like take some more pictures of my guy now that he's on his test booster post cycle. Also want to take a video of him on my phone. Kinda a throw back to the pictures I took on our first date. My upload them and crop them and post them on here so you can see the difference. I'm also thinking we do some measurements and I post them here as well. That's basically the G rated stuff we will be doing. The rest is between me and Coach.
Hard to believe it's only been a month. Seems like so much more has gone on in this month. Honestly it felt like we were together for 2 months. With dealing with Ted, getting to know each other, talking on the phone, through e-mails, and on bear we have gotten really close. Can't wait for our date Saturday. I try to make every date special. I want Coach to never feel like I don't love or care about him. It's why I'm all over him all the time on dates. June is slowly coming and when it does I'll be with him in the same house all the time. Now I just have to find a way to get him up to visit my dads or have them come down to visit us. They really like Coach, and are nervous that he won't like them so they can't keep up the friendship that they have with me. I know that everyone will love everyone so I'm not worried at all and told them such.
So happy one month anniversary to us. I won't be one of those guys that counts every month, but the 1st month is special. The next big one will be 6 months which will be February 20th. Hmm.... totally didn't plan that. Least we didn't start dating on August 14th. That would just be so wrong to have a 6th month anniversary on Valentine's day. And we all know my stance on Valentine's day. It's a day that makes single people feel worse and makes couples have to do something special just because of the day on the calendar. I rather love my guy all year round and make him special all year round then have to go all out just because it's Valentine's day or a B-day or an Anniversary. Well those last two I would make a big deal because to us they are, but not Valentine's day.

Back to work

I had a pretty good weekend. Me and Ted went out of town to just hang then I went with some friends to a demolition derby on Saturday. Was fun all around and I got some fun pictures. Sent Coach one that made him chuckle. Yesterday was a nice day. Didn't do anything. Just watched a bit more true blood.
The other good thing is that Ted and Coach are getting along. Not to mention that Ted has pretty much said he's not going to pursue me (romantically) anymore. Coach and Ted will be meeting the first week of October. Things there are going well which has made my life a little less heavy. Now it's just focusing on Ted and his dating life. Last week three guys were interested in him and sadly he's seeing the crappy side of dating. The one he's talked to the most seems like he has the most to hide. Just feels like he's avoiding something and I think it's that he's HIV positive. I mean the guy told Ted he was going on a date (saturday), but not sure too much was going to happen (why he had to tell ted this is beyond me) because the guy lied to him (and yet you are still going out with him) and that's not a good sign. Then he tells Ted about the date (again why?) saying that the guy has to blow into his car to get it started (so a smoker and heavy drinker). When asked how many OWI's the guy had he responded that it was too many. With all that in mind he tells Ted that he THINKS he won't see that guy again. Needless to say Bachelor number 1 is done. Bachelor number 2 was actually in the city me and Ted went to go visit and asked if he could meet us. Ted said where would you like to meet and when. We never heard back from him until after we got back. Apparently his reply was left in the draft box. The e-mail was sent on Thursday. We were going up there on Saturday. Wouldn't you think you would try a little harder to get a hold of someone coming to meet you? Plus he seems to have trouble writing. In the last e-mail he sent it just made no sense. I read it myself. So bachelor number 2 is pretty much done. Thus leaves bachelor number 3. He by far seems to have connected to Ted the best. He's also the closet. The problem is that he works nights so there are long periods of time when he won't respond back. He gave Ted his e-mail address and made it sound like he was going to respond more regularly, but sadly he didn't respond at all yesterday and so far hasn't responded today so Ted is pretty down about it. I have a feeling he will respond and he's not just playing Ted and even told him that, but he's still feeling down. Needless to say they'll be exchanging phone numbers soon so that they can at least text. Something I need to get Coach to do since he doesn't have a cellphone yet.

Speaking of Coach we have a date Saturday and I'm staying the night. It will be nice to be able to just enjoy our time together. Be able to enjoy each other all night. What I am looking forward to the most is waking up next to him. Seeing that smile he gives me. To hold him and kiss him good morning. That has always been my big thing. I've always found waking up next to someone to just be so calming. In romantic movies when the two characters wake up next to each other and smile it always makes my heart melt. In porn it makes my heart melt and my dick hard. That's just how I am. Even with Ted it was nice to just be able to wrap my arms around him while sleeping or in the morning to let him know I'm there. The first time I ever had sex, I stayed over at the guys place. For him it was just sex and that was clear. He wouldn't let me hold him and wouldn't hold me. That was some of the most restless sleep I had. Then towards the morning wants to get frisky. With coach I've never felt that. I've stayed over before and even if we weren't holding each other we were still touching in some way. It felt so right and it will feel so right on Saturday. Even if we don't have sex the entire time I'm there (ha we will) as long as I get to hold him and snuggle with him at night I'm good.
I've been meaning to post this song for awhile, but just finally remembered to do it. I'm sure you've heard of RuPaul's drag race? If not then well get your head out from under that rock. Anyway I started watching in the 2nd season. I was home visiting my mom and there was a marathon on of the first and 2nd season. I actually saw the ending for the 2nd season before anything. Then from there I kinda went backwards to watch it. By far I think it's the best season. The reason being is that it seemed like even the bitchest contestant made an emotional connection with the audience. I think the most powerful moment in the 2nd season was when Pandora Boxx talked about thinking of committing suicide. She got tons of e-mails and letters saying that others can relate and thanks for sharing the story in the reunion special and it's true. There is a reason why Pandora has a huge following. I wish she would have won to be honest, but I digress. The song for that season (Don't be Jealous of my Boogie) always got stuck in my head and still does from time to time (probably cause it's on my mp3 player). This is a video that was put together by supahypasonic. It has clips from the show and the untucked special. I like it more than the official video.

Back on track

Yesterday was a pretty crappy day as you could tell. A lot went down. I had dinner with Ted and my friend. He seemed to be ok during that dinner, until talk of him meeting a guy off the site he's on came up. Which lead to him dominating the conversation and informing our friend how the difficulties he's having and blah blah blah. Then he ends this 10 minute conversation (felt like longer) saying I'm not trying to make you uncomfortable, but just saying how I feel. I had to go give the waitress a tip and found out my friend said that he didn't mean to exclude Ted from things and he's welcome to come with him and his boyfriend anytime etc. So Ted let's me know that's all he wanted was someone to be a friend and all that jazz so today he's in a good mood. We will see how long it lasts before he goes back to the guy who e-mailed coach saying how much time and energy he invested in me for Coach to benefit. He truly did e-mail my boyfriend saying that. Lovely huh?
In other news the guy I dated before Coach asked me to his b-day party. Note that he has no clue that I'm dating someone. I would assume by now he figured it out or hasn't. Yesterday I accepted the invitation because I was pissy and feeling like petty bitch. Kinda wanted to rub that I'm dating someone in his face, but today I'm not so pissy and I don't know what to do. I'll probably discuss it with Coach. He wants to have dinner at the olive garden then go downtown. Well downtown means bars and I'm not into bars. Plus I'm certainly not going to be drinking then driving. Hell I can't even stand to drink. Well I'll talk to coach about it, and it's not like it's just me and him. Better not be expected to get him a gift if I do go. I'm not that close to him.

Well what I was going to talk about yesterday was the fact that me and Coach's astrology signs are so compatible. I try not to be so into astrology, but well when most of my relationships ended exactly how it was predicted they would it's hard not to give it some credit. My first boyfriend was a scorpio (I'm a libra) and well it ended like all sites said it would. It ended cause he was quite jealous. It was hard to secure him. With Ted (who is a cancer) the relationship was a lot of work. It worked at times, but it was just constantly working to keep it together. With Coach (who's a Sagittarius) it is so easy and natural. It feels just right. We compliment each other. Every day it seems like we don't have to try to enjoy each other. It's a joy just to talk on the phone or through e-mails. It fits so well. It can be seen in how we interact. He can be dom and submissive and I'm the opposite of what he is at the time. It's awesome to be pushed around by him, but just as much fun to make him submit to me. I lean on him just as much as he leans on me. I'm up when he's down or he's up when I'm down. It feels like what I thought a real relationship would feel like. It doesn't even feel like we will have too many arguments, and if we do they will be resolved easily. And to think it all started on March 2nd with a chance meeting. It's a good thing that we didn't truly meet back then. We both had to do some growing to get to where we are now. I'm happy to be with him and no one is taking that away from me.

And my Monday has been long

It's only 11:45 (as of the time I'm writing this) and I'm so ready for today to be over. It has just been a long morning. Slow at the store plus seems like I can't get going. Also had trouble placing an order today which didn't help. I'm just now getting some breakfast in. Well the 2nd part of my breakfast that I save for when I get to work. Anyway a lot happened this weekend.
The good news is that my ex boyfriend Ted is on a dating website. Which now that I've gone through one day with him on that website is also bad news. Saturday he was all up beat. He had a guy that he thought was cute he contacted and had a few guys wink at him. Sunday he was a little depressed. The guy that he messaged apparently is giving up searching for a bit so he can focus on his school and job. The other bad news is that he's sent some e-mails to other guys and hasn't heard back. He was also contacted by two other guys and he isn't to thrilled about them. One lives about three hours away and Ted doesn't want to do a whole lot of driving which I can't blame him. Three hours is a lot of time on the road and would require either staying over a lot or having 6 hours free and a lot of money for gas. The other lives local and is one of those stuck on himself guys. At first I thought he wasn't giving him a far shake, until I read his profile. It's one of those "I'm a fit masculine man who's very professional and traveled the world" type of profiles. The kind that make you just go gross. He even answers his e-mails saying "Fit masculine guy here". Who does that? Who truly responds to every e-mail or message with fit masculine guy here? Now as for the guy that lives three hours away I kinda talked Ted into giving him a chance to get to know him. Saying that if you put it right out there that you aren't looking to do a lot of traveling then it may work. Sounds like he is self employed and has a lot of time that he could spend on driving. Even said in his profile he could move anywhere. They are pretty close in age and he seems like a nice guy. So like I said this is a kinda good news bad news situation.
There is a lot going on here. One he's on a dating website that caters to both men and women gay and straight. Two he's finally put a picture of him up on the website. Three he hasn't gotten the best reception. Four it's a pay site. He's paid for 3 months on the site. See I'm always leery of sites where you have to pay to do anything. Just cause you pay doesn't make it a good site. Yes it can weed out the players, but it can also scare away people who are good. I have no interest in paying to find a guy to talk to. I only joined sites like gay.com, bear411, Manhunt, and adam4adam. Not all at the same time and the only one I'm still on is bear411. Each site caters to a different crowd. Ted is looking for a real relationship. Hopefully he can find a guy on the site cause if not....well going to be hard on me and Coach.
In other news Coach will be meeting Ted tomorrow. Well that is assuming he doesn't change his mind. I'm trying to respect that he is having a hard time. No one likes seeing their ex find someone before them. Especially when you are still trying to get over him or her. It's just starting to get hard. Last night for instance. I wanted to stay up until 11:30 to watch the Robot Chicken DC comics special (which was kinda a let down). I said that when he asked if I was staying up and he says you are just saying that cause you want to talk to Coach (he said his real name). Note that I had talked to Coach earlier in the day and he knew about it. I didn't hide it. He said it with a smile, but at the same time it didn't feel like a complete joke. I said no I'm really staying up to watch that special plus to talk to him this late would be rude to you. He said well you could text. I said Coach doesn't have a cell phone (one thing I constantly remind him of) and that we talk through e-mail which I can do at any time. Plus he was asleep at the time. And that's just one of the recent comments. I'm trying to be honest with him and not hide things, but comments like that make it hard. If I'm staying up to talk to my boyfriend I'll say so. If he had stayed up he would have saw I wasn't lying. Respect works both ways and I'm just going to have to say something. Just haven't wanted to rock the boat too much since we have been doing really well. For the most part he was good Sunday.
Well in positive news Coach has some more stat updates. I got them Saturday, but this was after I had finished the blog and didn't want to go back to do an update. I was working on a Saturday so excuse my laziness on that.

Current Weight: 190lbs
Lifting Stats: working bench press for reps 200-215lbs
Squats 235-250lbs
Romanian deadlifts 260lbs
Barbell curl 85lbs-95lbs
Shrugs 250lbs-260lbs
Overhead barbell shoulder press 110lbs-115lbs
Dumbbell concentration curls at 40lbs
Is it any wonder why he can lift me up so easily? And No that picture isn't Coach, but I felt like posting it here.

I found this on Lolsnaps this morning and just had to post it. Wish they also showed wrestling too. Not the professional stuff, but the college and high school stuff with singlets. That's another one that could fit it in with the picture. Just draw singlets on the guys.

Still in disbelief

The video post is here fyi. I know I need to snap out of this before I start doing a self fulfilling prophecy. I mean every time I talk to Coach or am held by him or kiss him I just can't believe we are a couple. I mean I believe it, just can't believe how fortunate I have become. You all have seen his pictures. He's very in shape and planning on getting bigger. Growing up I always hoped I'd get a boyfriend like Coach and now I do. I just keep pinching myself hoping I never wake up, but I better stop or I'll just be one big bruise or scary enough wake up. It's like in the first episode of season 4 of RuPaul's drag race. What's her name was just this starry eyed doe in headlights and eventually was let go because of it. I know Coach wouldn't do that, but there is modesty and then there is fishing for compliments. I think I'll start believing it when September 20th hits. That's when my mind will finally get rid of that last bit of doubt since a month is when things normally go sour. I don't see that happening obviously, but sadly we all have that negative nelly in the back of our heads. I mean guys who see our pictures think we look cute together. I sent an e-mail to a friend back in Texas and he said:
perfect couple,,, about the same height,,, both love tatoos,,,, both like to work out,,,, and he looks like the type that is a protector,,, if that makes any sense,,,, your nips even look a bit excited to be near him,,,, lol...
Just note that last part was him talking about the picture. And my nips always look like that, although I'm always excited to be near Coach. So snap out of it brain be happy. We have a guy who loves us and we love him.
On a different note I was talking to this guy I met awhile ago. We never did anything, but he is very interesting. I told him I'm seeing someone and he said good for me, but he was still looking and time was running out. He's 30 going on 31. I wanted to tell him what his exact problem is, but well no one really listens when you call them out on their shit. You'll recall I talked about him some time ago. He wants a boyfriend, but he is very very picky. I understand that as guys we do need to be physically excited with our partner, but there does need to be something there as well. With him he's looking for a lot of superficial stuff. For instance on all his profiles he says he wants a guy who his height/weight proportionate. Basically he's looking for a guy that is in the green range of the BMI. As we all know the BMI is not designed for guys who are muscular so basically he's looking for a twink. Yes he isn't looking for a twink. No he wants a muscular straight acting guy. Yes I hate the use of "straight acting" to describe a gay guy to. The only porn he will watch is where the top is straight and gay for pay. So basically next door studios stuff. All this because he doesn't like the gay community. He says that we are all douche bags. Well he said most gay guys are douche bags, but you get my point. So you can see how it would be hard to find someone that fits his description. And if you look at his picture he looks like a stereotypical gay guy. The irony of it all. So I said you should open up your age range a bit. Well he's done that. I was going to say more, but figured he's at the age where if he hasn't figured it out he will when it's too late and nothing I say is going to help.
I'll admit I'm less on the picky side and well it got me a guy. Yes I'm clearly physically attracted to Coach. He is basically my perfect guy physically. Then I got to get closer to him emotionally and that's what has allowed me to become his encourager. He wants to get bigger and I'm not going to stop him. I have a wide range of what I'm attracted to physically. If Coach wanted to slim down then go for it. He's still the same man on the inside just with a smaller outside. If he wants to get bigger then that's just more to love. If he wants to get hairy then yay I get a pelt to pet. If he wants to shave then that just means I can lick him all over with less hair in my mouth. When we aren't willing to be flexible in what we like physically we miss out on something big. There are nice guys around here who he will never give a chance because his physical standards are so high and he's looking for a guy emotionally who will never want a relationship other than as a fuck buddy.

Videos

Finally got around to posting this weeks videos. Labor day through me off plus been busy with Coach and allergies. Hey better late than never. The first video is for fans of hairy guys with a bit of a muscular build. It stars Mike Vespa and another hairy dude. I'm sure they say the name, but I'm too impatient to sit through that beginning part. It's pretty action packed once it gets started which is of course awesome. Next up is Michaelm677. I found this video around the time me and Coach were first kinda going out. He reminded me of Michael in the sense that both are big guys (Coach has more definition) and that they both like to be called...wait for it.... Coach. This is one of his videos where he his cum hits his face. He has a few videos like this. Third up is Gus Mattox and Bruce Beckham. I can say honestly Gus is not my favorite porn star, but I do like the kinda Daddy/Son dynamic of this scene. And Bruce is pretty hot. Next is kinda a special request. I was asked to find a scene with a specific porn star and most of his work is with Smoking Hunks. I just so happened to find him in a scene yesterday, but for the life of me I can not remember his name. I can tell you everyone else in this scene, Nick Harmon (cop), Jack Austin (cop with less hair), Wayne (older guy in tank), and then this guy. It's killing me. Anyway it's a foursome scene. Enjoy. Last up is Paul Carrigan in the alley. Basically it's "amateur" porn. Paul agreed to fuck on camera for money and all three guys do get off. Porn is weird.

Mile a minute

My mind is truly going a mile a minute. Plus I'm dealing with allergies and my brain is just not wanting to focus today. It will probably just be a short entry today. Yesterday Coach and I found out a guy he dated a year ago is still in "love" with him and wants him back. We found this out through a mutual friend. Needless to say nothing will happen. The guy had his chance and is a compulsive liar. Plus he had a whole year to come to his senses. He didn't and me and Coach are together. And very happy about it. Plus everyone else that has found out has been very happy for us. Even an ex Coach stays in touch with. His name is Paul (not his real name obviously, got to protect identities), and he was the one that basically brought me and Coach together. You see Paul is from Boston and visited Coach for a week. Well he wanted to fly back early and before he did Coach took him by the gym. That is the day that I happened to be going to the gym. It was a Friday (March 2nd). I was doing my legs and Coach was doing his arms. Well if Paul hadn't been going home early I probably wouldn't have seen Coach and we most likely wouldn't be together now. If he had left Saturday I would have been in the gym, but would have never been in the back room cause it was my cardio day. Just funny how that all works.

 There is a lot I remember about that day. Very well in fact. Paul was writing down what Coach was telling him about his reps and weights etc. The thing I remember the most though is this. Coach was flexing in the mirror and had this rope with knots in it ever inch or so. He had Paul measure his arm. I also remember coach was a little miffed cause his arm didn't have big of a pump as it should. Funny the things you remember huh? Well I'll be the one doing the measuring. Actually we should do that. Make a log book. I know Coach wants to track his progress.

I saw this picture of Chris Duffy around the same time me and Coach started talking. Even though Coach is not that much taller than me it just makes me think of us. Me resting my head on his very muscular chest. Him holding me tight. It's a cute picture that makes me smile so much. Makes me a happy boy.

So Adam has mentioned that he can hear the happiness in my writing and it makes him happy.Well I'm glad. Shows he's a true friend. Sadly I can't say the same for others. I know going forward there will be some guys who will go out of their way to say we don't belong together. They will try to break us up to get one or the other. They will talk just to talk. With that in mind I couldn't help but remember this song. I heard it for the first time when I went to a movie with my mom. Don't remember which movie even. It was a few years later that I finally got it on my iPod. It's a great message. The imagery was perfect for the song. Oh and look out for Ray J. His appearance is just funny. He just randomly pops up while Brandy is singing. Made me out right chuckle.