And a big thanks

So yesterday my blog hit over 1000 views. Pretty sure that was a first for this blog. I've gotten close, but pretty sure I haven't broken 1000 before. I'm amazed at how popular this blog has become. I always expected it to be kinda a well kept secret. Now I'm on at least two blog lists for two different blogs and just recently I was mentioned in a forum. Yeah I got some hits earlier in the week from barachan.xibia.net. One of the members encouraged others to check out my blog. Kinda let's me know I'm doing something right. Let's face it, if I didn't get some positive feedback from time to time I probably wouldn't have stuck around as long as I have. As much as we all would like to believe we don't care about other people's feedback we kinda do. Basically it's like when you get an A on a paper. It let's you know you are doing something right and kinda boosts you up. That's how I feel when I get more views or comments.
The basic idea behind this blog was just to blog about things I couldn't talk to other people about. At the time I started this I was dating a guy who I couldn't be honest with and who didn't want to branch out and meet other gay guys. There were certain things I needed to discuss, but couldn't since I didn't have anyone else to bounce ideas off of. So I created this place to get out all my ranting or random curious thoughts. I started adding the videos just because I did want to make the blog a bit more popular, but didn't see it rise too much so I kept them around. They were easy to keep up with for the most part. Now look at this blog. So much has changed yet a lot has stayed the same. If this keeps up I might actually be talking to more porn stars besides just Rocky LaBarre, Adam Russo, and Pete Finland on twitter. Oh and FYI if it's in this blog and I haven't said I'm making it up it happened. I sadly am not creative enough to make this stuff up.

 I really do wish Dave Stone still did porn. He was always that strong silent type that I always found sexy. When you really think about it, he never really said much in any scene he was in. Then again if you were with him would you really focus on anything he was saying v.s. anything he was doing.

 I love couple photos. I just do. It has to do with me being a romantic and everything. Gives me hope that I'll find someone one day. Which is funny cause when I see lovey dovey couples in real life I just want to pour cold water on them.

 I do believe this is a suggestive pose. Then again once you remove your pants and your all boned it's pretty suggestive. I think raising the shirt is just more to toy with. Oh the naughty things I'm thinking right now.

I saw this pic on The Men We All Love and been meaning to post it. Well I was on xtube the other day and I swear this guy reminds me of a guy on there by the name of RowdyMuscle. He has some videos up and typically they are him showing off. He does wear a kinda chain necklace, but it has a lock on it so I don't think this is him. Sure as hell looks like him though. Well kinda morphed. Well they say everyone has a twin right?

It's my b-day

Today is my b-day. You see I kinda have a love hate relationship with my b-day. The reason being is that it is the first of October. Fall is truly here and it's only going to get colder and darker. Yet at the same time my late b-day made me one of the oldest in school growing up which of course was a big thing when you were in elementary school. Not to mention in high school you can be one of the kids to get his license and permit early. It's also when school really starts buckling down now that it's mid semester. Plus as a kid I hated Halloween. Not the holiday, but the season. All these scary movies on TV (before we got satellite and you only had a few channels to choose from) and I hated going shopping with my dad at Walmart because of all the scary costumes. I've out grown that, but I still dread the Halloween season. Not to mention not too many things happen after you turn 21. That's why I'm at this weird stage with my b-day. I love that people at least go out of there way to say happy b-day to me, but I don't ever expect anything special. This year is different and better since I've been in a better mood. There is also Coach around to make me smile. I also have a new car and me and Ted are getting along right now.
My plans so far are simple. I'm going out for Dinner with Ted. It's something he had planned and something Coach knew about early on. After we have dinner I got some cheese cake in the fridge. A mutual friend of mine and Coach's will be doing something some time this month to celebrate my b-day. I kinda purposely didn't tell others that my b-day was today. The only ones that I talked about it are Ted, Coach, and you readers. And that last one was more of a last minute thing.
What I'm really looking forward to is my weekend with Coach. He's currently up to 194 lbs. So close to 200 lbs. The goal was to get to 200 lbs for my b-day. Now keep in mind that I love him at 194, 184, or 204. This was just a personal goal for him and he would have reached it if it hadn't been from stress at school and work. For me he's basically reached that goal. The reason for this goal is that I asked Coach to top me. I haven't been topped since I was 20. And when I was getting topped I was on anti-depressants that I'm sure loosened me up. Once I got off them it got harder and harder for me to get topped. Plus I was dealing with assholes who were tops. I told myself I was not going to get topped again until I was in a solid relationship. Hence why I asked Coach to do it. I'm both excited and nervous. Excited because it is another way I can show Coach I'm only his, but nervous cause I haven't been topped in 4 years. I know that if I can't do it Coach won't make me feel bad about it. He will be as gentle with me as I was with him. And speaking of Coach got new stats to post:

CURRENT LIFTING STATS: working bench press for reps 235lbs
Squats 245lbs
Deadlift 300lbs
Romanian deadlift 265lbs
Barbell curl 100lbs
Shrugs 285lbs
Overhead barbell shoulder press 130lbs
Barbell rows 145lbs
Dumbbell concentration curl 40lbs
He's currently on week 10 of his current routine. Starting next week he'll be doing a mass gaining program with a special arm routine thrown in there. I really do need to measure him and right down those stats. Oh and btw I'm currently 165ish. Now look at those numbers again. You can see why he can easily lift me.
Since it's my b-day I figured I'd do something special. No special song today, but in fact a special video. I've said many times over the past that I like uncut guys. Mainly because they pre-cum a lot. Well I was looking for videos this morning and I found this one. This is another reason why I like uncut guys. If you've ever rubbed your dick with a guy you know it can feel amazing. Well then you have to try docking. I've only done it once, but it was with a guy who didn't have a whole lot of extra skin. Yes it is as hot as it looks and sounds. This is also me trying to get Coach excited. I'm such a tease.

And my Monday has been long

It's only 11:45 (as of the time I'm writing this) and I'm so ready for today to be over. It has just been a long morning. Slow at the store plus seems like I can't get going. Also had trouble placing an order today which didn't help. I'm just now getting some breakfast in. Well the 2nd part of my breakfast that I save for when I get to work. Anyway a lot happened this weekend.
The good news is that my ex boyfriend Ted is on a dating website. Which now that I've gone through one day with him on that website is also bad news. Saturday he was all up beat. He had a guy that he thought was cute he contacted and had a few guys wink at him. Sunday he was a little depressed. The guy that he messaged apparently is giving up searching for a bit so he can focus on his school and job. The other bad news is that he's sent some e-mails to other guys and hasn't heard back. He was also contacted by two other guys and he isn't to thrilled about them. One lives about three hours away and Ted doesn't want to do a whole lot of driving which I can't blame him. Three hours is a lot of time on the road and would require either staying over a lot or having 6 hours free and a lot of money for gas. The other lives local and is one of those stuck on himself guys. At first I thought he wasn't giving him a far shake, until I read his profile. It's one of those "I'm a fit masculine man who's very professional and traveled the world" type of profiles. The kind that make you just go gross. He even answers his e-mails saying "Fit masculine guy here". Who does that? Who truly responds to every e-mail or message with fit masculine guy here? Now as for the guy that lives three hours away I kinda talked Ted into giving him a chance to get to know him. Saying that if you put it right out there that you aren't looking to do a lot of traveling then it may work. Sounds like he is self employed and has a lot of time that he could spend on driving. Even said in his profile he could move anywhere. They are pretty close in age and he seems like a nice guy. So like I said this is a kinda good news bad news situation.
There is a lot going on here. One he's on a dating website that caters to both men and women gay and straight. Two he's finally put a picture of him up on the website. Three he hasn't gotten the best reception. Four it's a pay site. He's paid for 3 months on the site. See I'm always leery of sites where you have to pay to do anything. Just cause you pay doesn't make it a good site. Yes it can weed out the players, but it can also scare away people who are good. I have no interest in paying to find a guy to talk to. I only joined sites like gay.com, bear411, Manhunt, and adam4adam. Not all at the same time and the only one I'm still on is bear411. Each site caters to a different crowd. Ted is looking for a real relationship. Hopefully he can find a guy on the site cause if not....well going to be hard on me and Coach.
In other news Coach will be meeting Ted tomorrow. Well that is assuming he doesn't change his mind. I'm trying to respect that he is having a hard time. No one likes seeing their ex find someone before them. Especially when you are still trying to get over him or her. It's just starting to get hard. Last night for instance. I wanted to stay up until 11:30 to watch the Robot Chicken DC comics special (which was kinda a let down). I said that when he asked if I was staying up and he says you are just saying that cause you want to talk to Coach (he said his real name). Note that I had talked to Coach earlier in the day and he knew about it. I didn't hide it. He said it with a smile, but at the same time it didn't feel like a complete joke. I said no I'm really staying up to watch that special plus to talk to him this late would be rude to you. He said well you could text. I said Coach doesn't have a cell phone (one thing I constantly remind him of) and that we talk through e-mail which I can do at any time. Plus he was asleep at the time. And that's just one of the recent comments. I'm trying to be honest with him and not hide things, but comments like that make it hard. If I'm staying up to talk to my boyfriend I'll say so. If he had stayed up he would have saw I wasn't lying. Respect works both ways and I'm just going to have to say something. Just haven't wanted to rock the boat too much since we have been doing really well. For the most part he was good Sunday.
Well in positive news Coach has some more stat updates. I got them Saturday, but this was after I had finished the blog and didn't want to go back to do an update. I was working on a Saturday so excuse my laziness on that.

Current Weight: 190lbs
Lifting Stats: working bench press for reps 200-215lbs
Squats 235-250lbs
Romanian deadlifts 260lbs
Barbell curl 85lbs-95lbs
Shrugs 250lbs-260lbs
Overhead barbell shoulder press 110lbs-115lbs
Dumbbell concentration curls at 40lbs
Is it any wonder why he can lift me up so easily? And No that picture isn't Coach, but I felt like posting it here.

I found this on Lolsnaps this morning and just had to post it. Wish they also showed wrestling too. Not the professional stuff, but the college and high school stuff with singlets. That's another one that could fit it in with the picture. Just draw singlets on the guys.

Ugh....why today?

Today I was suppose to head over to Coach's place to have tacos and have a little fun, but I just couldn't make it. I think I'm having a major allergy attack or a cold. Hoping it's just allergies so I can go visit him on Friday. Plus it was senior day and I knew that I was going to have some shipments coming in. Luckily (or unluckily) it wasn't as busy as I thought it was going to be. With that being said this will be a short blog post. I'm going to go take a nap after this. I have Coach's shirt he left with me to sleep with so I'll be sleeping better.
Oh before I forget here are Coach's stats so far:
Currently around 186lb
16" biceps
belly has grown from 38" to 46"
Lifting stats:
Working bench press for reps 200-215lbs
Barbell curl 85lbs-95lbs
Shrugs 250lbs-260lbs
Overhead barbell shoulder press 110lbs-115lbs
As he lifts and as I'm there to measure we'll have more complete stats.
One thing I wanted to mention before signing off is that I've noticed I'm less interested in porn. This is actually a big deal from me. Most of my blog is porn related as we all know. I'm not saying that my lack of desire in porn is going to change this blog, but just pointing it out. I think the reason is that I'm with Coach. Not just that I'm with him, but that he's ok with me watching porn. I think it's like what Sheldon's mom said on the big bang theory. If you tell a guy not to do something that's all he wants to do. That's actually kinda how my last relationships went. I didn't want to watch porn with my first boyfriend and at some point it felt like I wasn't allowed to watch it so I did anyway. With my recent ex we use to watch porn together, but when I found he wasn't really interested it felt like I shouldn't be interested as well and thus I watched porn. Fun thing I learned about myself today.
Bet you can't guess who sent me this video and who he's talking about. Why yes Coach and why yes he was talking about me. I do love this song. You will be my music has such a heavy meaning. Music is a beautiful form of expression. It's something that only humans move to. It brings out so many feelings. Well the feeling I get whenever Coach sends me something like this is love. I love that man.