Crap

So my boyfriend caught me jacking off. I tried to play it off, but I'm sure he knows I was jacking off. Then he was kinda distant all day. Even when we went to bed he didn't try to hold me like usual. I of course didn't press the matter. That could be my problem. The fact that we didn't talk about it. We are just in an awkward position. He's stressed about work, I'm stressed about him plus just finished a pro-hormone cycle. When we got up to workout he seemed distant. I think he's wanting to go less and less because he's not seeing the results he wants to see. He seems to be stuck at a plateau. I think the reason being is he's using machines. Plus he honestly isn't the type to just put on muscle easily. Me on the other hand. Plus I push myself harder. I force my body to grow. Not so much waiting for my body telling me I can move up in weights. It could also be that it's getting colder that's making him not want to go. I can just read it on him.
In other news a lot of views are hitting my blog. Yay for that. Several have come from people searching for this blog by name. Yay. Got to admit it does help boost my ego knowing that people are viewing this blog. Even if it's just for the porn clips I post or the images I find online. As long as this keeps up I'll keep posting. Or until blogger shuts this down or my boyfriend finds out about it.