Well that was quick

So I broke up with Coach Saturday and it's amazing how quickly things have moved. On saturday he was all on about deleting his bear and never trying to find someone to date again, to yesterday updating his profile back to that he's looking. In a way I'm hurt, but at the same time not really. I'm hurt in that he so quickly moved on. Now yes I broke up with him and yes it's because I need to work on me so I've chosen not to try to date again, but again it seems like such a quick change. He even asked me if I knew any other sites to find someone. I guess I shouldn't be holding Coach to my clock. I mean he did bring up the issue of living together and rings first. Just would be nice if he at least waited a few more days before asking me that.
I think to make matters even worse on Sunday Ted asked me to consider dating him again. He asked because he thought I'd be looking for someone almost right away and wanted to make sure he threw his hat in the ring. Well he didn't bring it up yesterday which is nice cause I'm not looking right now. Well this morning as I'm getting ready to open up and this guy knocks on the door. He has a white rose in his hand and says that it's for me. I open up the card and it says from my secret admirer. Well that was the icing on an already fabulous day (holy crap I had trouble spelling fabulous). I know Ted's hand writing and I use to call him my white rose. Plus he had sent me an e-card this morning. If it's not him that sent the flower I will be truly shocked.
The other urge I'm dealing with is trying to not hook up. Usually after a break up I go on a slut bender where I do a lot of hook ups. Well this time I'm trying to be good and keep my dick out of anyone's mouth or ass.  Probably would help if I didn't watch porn, but oh well. I guess what it's really about is having another person there besides me. Hell even if a guy just wants to watch porn and jack off that's fine. I just like knowing someone else is there. It's hard to be good isn't it?

So now I'm trying to decide if I should move forward in trying to date (at least put myself out there) or continue to wait. I mean things with me and Ted are good and I honestly don't want to mess with that. Plus I think I'm going to date only guys closer to my age. I kinda am not looking forward to it cause most guys my age are pretty shallow. It's a pain to even get one to talk to you. Hell I'd just settle for a few friends my own age. Well I guess the first step is to get out there if I want to even make friends. This is where you guys come in. Are there any sites where guys actually talk. The problem I'm dealing with is that I'm in a small town and not a lot of guys from here or near my area, so the more sites I'm on the better. If you have any suggestions feel free to leave them in comments or send me a tweet on twitter. Just fyi don't suggest gay.com or manhunt because both those sites I've tried and both have failed me. I also want to thank everyone that sent me a message or a tweet asking how I was doing. It does mean a lot to me that you guys did that.