One day closer

I'm one day closer to being with Coach and honestly it couldn't come at a better time. I have been so horny lately. I don't know if it's because my body is prepping itself for a fun weekend or if it's the new pre-workout I'm taking. Maybe it's a combo of the two, but every morning I've had to edge. The store is opening up an hour later so I get an hour to myself and well that leads to my dick getting into my hand.When I get horny and I edge for long enough I long for human companionship and contact. That's normally the time where I say fuck it and cum. Well not this time. I'm trying to hold out for Saturday and it's getting harder by the hour. I'm sure it would help if I stop looking at porn, but I like to look at porn when I edge. It gives me ideas. I'm also looking for possible videos to share with Coach. We aren't to the stage where we are watching porn together, but I'm a planner. I like to plan things ahead.
I'm also trying to muddle through this week. This morning there was something foul in the air. At first I thought it was the staff at my apartment building turning fallen leaves in to mulch, but it wasn't just at my apartment building. It was in the air at the store and even at the bank. Then it started to mess with my allergies and my sinuses started acting up. Now that I'm inside I'm fine, but I'm wonder what that was about. Feeling like crap doesn't help me get through a day. Especially cause it's hard to tell if it's just sinus or allergies and nothing something else. I mean me and Coach are going to be spending a lot of close time together.

In other news I was talking to a friend of mine who recently moved back to California. We never met, but he was up here in Wisconsin for awhile. There was a guy he dated and it didn't end well. I haven't asked for details (because it isn't my place to), but he's back in California now. He was telling me about his gym and I can honestly say I'm a little envious. He works out at a pretty much 95% gay gym. I made a joke about how he must constantly be working out with a boner and he said sometimes. I then said I bet you need a very tight jock and he said nope. That of course amazes me because he has pretty much the same problem I do. A dick that is pretty much always visible. When I get a boner everyone knows. Just ask Coach. I'm amazed that he could even focus like that. I wouldn't last 2 minutes there. You see even now I get embarrassed by my boners. I don't know why it is, but I do. I feel like all eyes are on me when I'm boned up. Hell even when I'm with coach I feel myself turn a little red when I get a boner. We were driving in his car 2 weekends ago and I kept boning up and I just kept trying to hide it. Now if I act like that with my own boyfriend you can imagine how I am with other gay guys I don't know. So glad I don't have to worry about it cause as soon as my gym membership is done (in June) I won't have to worry about renewing it or finding a new gym cause Coach has his own home gym.