Finally

I finally got my new computer. My other one was for sure dying. You never realize how crappy your old computer is until you get a new one that actually has sound. Anyway the other day I was just surfing the web and went to adam champ's blog. I saw that he had a formspring so I went in and looked. Well it answered a lot of my questions. Carlo is doing theater work and retired from porn 2 years ago. That's why Adam has been alone a lot. They are still together. Which I'm happy about. They look so cute together. The other thing that I saw that made me feel better was I saw that clip of Adam Champ fucking in the alley again. It's on the mancountry blog. There is a link in the side bar. Anyway on closer inspection it looks like it's a scene from a porn he did. It just looks like someone happened to see it and video tape it. In case you were wondering I just like seeing people together. It really is weird. I don't like seeing people single. Least I admit it. Plus when I see a couple like Adam Champ and Carlo Masi I can't help but be curious and hope they are still together. It was like when I found out Pedro Andreas and Daniel Marvin broke up. The two look great together, but you never know what goes on off camera.
Well my pro-hormone cycle is coming to a close. None too soon really. I still am not feeling that spark for my boyfriend I felt like 2 weeks ago. My libido is still there just not for my boyfriend. Well now that we kinda passed our really rough patch maybe I'll get over it. I don't want to break up with him, but I don't want to keep having these feelings either. It will just lead to fighting. I don't want to fight with him. I want to love him. Who knows we might decide that it's ok for me to find a guy to play with as long as I stay with him. Doubt it. I know I still love him, just not attracted to him right now. It's a very annoying tug of war going on within me right now.