Quite energetic

Today I'm quite full of pep. And as such I have so many things to talk about. So I guess I should start from the beginning.

This morning I started on a new pre-workout. Well it isn't really new. I've had it before. It's a different one than I was using yesterday. The thing about this product is that it causes my mind to be razor sharp. I was focusing on the music I was listening too, while feeling every rep I did, and thinking about what to post here. All three at the exact same time. Usually when I'm lifting my mind registers that I'm listening to music, but I don't really hear it until I'm done lifting. This time I heard every single word. It's so weird. Plus when I was doing my cool down bike ride usually my heart rate is about 147 bpm. Today it was 137 bpm which is low for me after a leg workout. I got to the apartment and my mind just wouldn't shut off. Then I started to get horny. Let's just say if Coach was at my apartment we would have been fucking. And I probably could have cum twice in a row. I'll be taking it Saturday and Sunday so he better watch out. Think this weekend is the weekend he's going to have trouble keeping up with me. Normally I don't feel the need to play with myself, but I had to today. Didn't cum cause I had to be at work early, but man would it have been nice.
This morning I had to be on the radio promoting the store so I couldn't be late. And tomorrow I sadly have to be in early for senior day too. Well I guess I shouldn't say sadly. It will keep me from edging which makes it a better chance I'll last until Saturday. The radio spots went well. The DJ who did the spot with me and the rep from the station said I did a fantastic job. They always say I do a good job. I always wonder how much of it is b/s and how much of it is true. I mean who wants to say to someone wow you sucked it up. Obviously they wouldn't say it like that, but you see my point. I just always wonder about that type of stuff.

The other thing I was thinking about this morning is my body image. My overall goal is to be about 185lbs, but I'm afraid to really go for it. Coach will stand by me and help me do it when I'm ready, but I'm so hard on myself body wise that I'm just paralyzed. As you can see Coach is going for the powerlifter look and I'm very much into that. He has made it clear that if I go up to 185 or stay at 165 he will still love me and find me attractive. My problem is that I'm not comfortable with a belly. I mean I'm not looking for a 6 pack or anything, but my stomach has to be kinda flat. Basically I'm not at that age where I'm ok not having a 6 pack or being ok with having a muscle gut like a power lifter. I'm thinking about this because Coach has that look and it looks great on him. I just don't know if I'm ready to go there just yet. I guess I really don't know what I want my body to look like so I don't really have a goal just yet. I want to be muscular and will put in the work to look like that, but I'm not willing to starve myself and diet endlessly to get a chiseled 6 pack. I am only 24 and I know that's one reason why I'm so into my looks. The only time I don't worry about it is when I'm with Coach and he holds me and kisses me. It's the only time it feels like I can be happy with myself.
I sadly have more things I could talk about, but don't want this blog post getting too long today. Do have a song that I think is appropriate for today. It's called Afrodisiac. No that isn't a misspelling. That's how the song is spelled. I think it's safe to say it fits how I feel about Coach sexually. I've done a lot of songs that have displayed my emotions. I think I'm allowed to play one that's a little dirty.

It's my b-day

Today is my b-day. You see I kinda have a love hate relationship with my b-day. The reason being is that it is the first of October. Fall is truly here and it's only going to get colder and darker. Yet at the same time my late b-day made me one of the oldest in school growing up which of course was a big thing when you were in elementary school. Not to mention in high school you can be one of the kids to get his license and permit early. It's also when school really starts buckling down now that it's mid semester. Plus as a kid I hated Halloween. Not the holiday, but the season. All these scary movies on TV (before we got satellite and you only had a few channels to choose from) and I hated going shopping with my dad at Walmart because of all the scary costumes. I've out grown that, but I still dread the Halloween season. Not to mention not too many things happen after you turn 21. That's why I'm at this weird stage with my b-day. I love that people at least go out of there way to say happy b-day to me, but I don't ever expect anything special. This year is different and better since I've been in a better mood. There is also Coach around to make me smile. I also have a new car and me and Ted are getting along right now.
My plans so far are simple. I'm going out for Dinner with Ted. It's something he had planned and something Coach knew about early on. After we have dinner I got some cheese cake in the fridge. A mutual friend of mine and Coach's will be doing something some time this month to celebrate my b-day. I kinda purposely didn't tell others that my b-day was today. The only ones that I talked about it are Ted, Coach, and you readers. And that last one was more of a last minute thing.
What I'm really looking forward to is my weekend with Coach. He's currently up to 194 lbs. So close to 200 lbs. The goal was to get to 200 lbs for my b-day. Now keep in mind that I love him at 194, 184, or 204. This was just a personal goal for him and he would have reached it if it hadn't been from stress at school and work. For me he's basically reached that goal. The reason for this goal is that I asked Coach to top me. I haven't been topped since I was 20. And when I was getting topped I was on anti-depressants that I'm sure loosened me up. Once I got off them it got harder and harder for me to get topped. Plus I was dealing with assholes who were tops. I told myself I was not going to get topped again until I was in a solid relationship. Hence why I asked Coach to do it. I'm both excited and nervous. Excited because it is another way I can show Coach I'm only his, but nervous cause I haven't been topped in 4 years. I know that if I can't do it Coach won't make me feel bad about it. He will be as gentle with me as I was with him. And speaking of Coach got new stats to post:

CURRENT LIFTING STATS: working bench press for reps 235lbs
Squats 245lbs
Deadlift 300lbs
Romanian deadlift 265lbs
Barbell curl 100lbs
Shrugs 285lbs
Overhead barbell shoulder press 130lbs
Barbell rows 145lbs
Dumbbell concentration curl 40lbs
He's currently on week 10 of his current routine. Starting next week he'll be doing a mass gaining program with a special arm routine thrown in there. I really do need to measure him and right down those stats. Oh and btw I'm currently 165ish. Now look at those numbers again. You can see why he can easily lift me.
Since it's my b-day I figured I'd do something special. No special song today, but in fact a special video. I've said many times over the past that I like uncut guys. Mainly because they pre-cum a lot. Well I was looking for videos this morning and I found this one. This is another reason why I like uncut guys. If you've ever rubbed your dick with a guy you know it can feel amazing. Well then you have to try docking. I've only done it once, but it was with a guy who didn't have a whole lot of extra skin. Yes it is as hot as it looks and sounds. This is also me trying to get Coach excited. I'm such a tease.

Videos

First up is Robert Van Damne and Vince Ferelli. This was put out by Mighty Men I believe. Was just happy to find this scene didn't really look for the markings. Anyway in this clip Vince is asking Robert for pointers on doing porn. I remember because this scene was entitled Oops... At the end Vince says that was great, but I was thinking of going into straight porn. I remember strange things when I'm crushing on a guy and I had a major crush on Vince. Next up is a scene from the movie Trespass. As I've said before that movie came out around the time I was getting into looking at gay porn on the internet so I saw free clips of it everywhere. This threesome was another one I saw a lot. I remember trying to put the 15 sec clips I got in order, but was thrown off by the fact that Titan always had their models cum twice in a scene. Third up is a foursome in a warehouse. I can't remember the name this scene comes from, but do know it's the final scene. I like it because you get 2 working class guys playing with 2 exec types. And everyone gets involved. Everyone tops and bottoms. Very hot. Lastly is a video with Edmundo Castro. He's the bottom in this. I love seeing him because he is just so well built and is pretty much always the bottom. Sadly he doesn't cum in this clip, but it's still hot. Clearly the top enjoyed it because you can tell he starts to cum before he could get his dick out and the condom off.

http://mymusclevideo.com/media/27430/Edmundo_Muscle_Brasil/