Crap

So my boyfriend caught me jacking off. I tried to play it off, but I'm sure he knows I was jacking off. Then he was kinda distant all day. Even when we went to bed he didn't try to hold me like usual. I of course didn't press the matter. That could be my problem. The fact that we didn't talk about it. We are just in an awkward position. He's stressed about work, I'm stressed about him plus just finished a pro-hormone cycle. When we got up to workout he seemed distant. I think he's wanting to go less and less because he's not seeing the results he wants to see. He seems to be stuck at a plateau. I think the reason being is he's using machines. Plus he honestly isn't the type to just put on muscle easily. Me on the other hand. Plus I push myself harder. I force my body to grow. Not so much waiting for my body telling me I can move up in weights. It could also be that it's getting colder that's making him not want to go. I can just read it on him.
In other news a lot of views are hitting my blog. Yay for that. Several have come from people searching for this blog by name. Yay. Got to admit it does help boost my ego knowing that people are viewing this blog. Even if it's just for the porn clips I post or the images I find online. As long as this keeps up I'll keep posting. Or until blogger shuts this down or my boyfriend finds out about it.

Videos

Alright first up we have a  foursome. I don't remember which movie this came from, but I do know it's a Kristen Bjorn movie. You can tell by all the oiled hunks and multiple cumshots. Always a goodie. Next is another scene from Roommate Zack. I must say this movie makes it seem like Zack only jacks off after work. You'd think he'd be able to get some. Anyway just another clip of a guy creaming himself. How many of you have ever wanted to fuck after workout. Well this clip will help aid that fantasy. I'm sure we all know someone at the gym that gets our motor going and would love to go after him after he gets all hot and sweaty. Then it is on to the first scene from Out with the Porn Stars. Bruno Knight is getting ready for a performance when of course someone has to come over and distract him. I'd distract him too. This clip is the last one and it shocks me that it's still up now that I'm posting. The first clip of Cliff from sean cody was deleted and next to it was this one of Julio from sean cody. Well it's still up so enjoy it while you can. The guy has a pretty nice body and has a great climax.

Finally

I finally got my new computer. My other one was for sure dying. You never realize how crappy your old computer is until you get a new one that actually has sound. Anyway the other day I was just surfing the web and went to adam champ's blog. I saw that he had a formspring so I went in and looked. Well it answered a lot of my questions. Carlo is doing theater work and retired from porn 2 years ago. That's why Adam has been alone a lot. They are still together. Which I'm happy about. They look so cute together. The other thing that I saw that made me feel better was I saw that clip of Adam Champ fucking in the alley again. It's on the mancountry blog. There is a link in the side bar. Anyway on closer inspection it looks like it's a scene from a porn he did. It just looks like someone happened to see it and video tape it. In case you were wondering I just like seeing people together. It really is weird. I don't like seeing people single. Least I admit it. Plus when I see a couple like Adam Champ and Carlo Masi I can't help but be curious and hope they are still together. It was like when I found out Pedro Andreas and Daniel Marvin broke up. The two look great together, but you never know what goes on off camera.
Well my pro-hormone cycle is coming to a close. None too soon really. I still am not feeling that spark for my boyfriend I felt like 2 weeks ago. My libido is still there just not for my boyfriend. Well now that we kinda passed our really rough patch maybe I'll get over it. I don't want to break up with him, but I don't want to keep having these feelings either. It will just lead to fighting. I don't want to fight with him. I want to love him. Who knows we might decide that it's ok for me to find a guy to play with as long as I stay with him. Doubt it. I know I still love him, just not attracted to him right now. It's a very annoying tug of war going on within me right now.