Still in disbelief

The video post is here fyi. I know I need to snap out of this before I start doing a self fulfilling prophecy. I mean every time I talk to Coach or am held by him or kiss him I just can't believe we are a couple. I mean I believe it, just can't believe how fortunate I have become. You all have seen his pictures. He's very in shape and planning on getting bigger. Growing up I always hoped I'd get a boyfriend like Coach and now I do. I just keep pinching myself hoping I never wake up, but I better stop or I'll just be one big bruise or scary enough wake up. It's like in the first episode of season 4 of RuPaul's drag race. What's her name was just this starry eyed doe in headlights and eventually was let go because of it. I know Coach wouldn't do that, but there is modesty and then there is fishing for compliments. I think I'll start believing it when September 20th hits. That's when my mind will finally get rid of that last bit of doubt since a month is when things normally go sour. I don't see that happening obviously, but sadly we all have that negative nelly in the back of our heads. I mean guys who see our pictures think we look cute together. I sent an e-mail to a friend back in Texas and he said:
perfect couple,,, about the same height,,, both love tatoos,,,, both like to work out,,,, and he looks like the type that is a protector,,, if that makes any sense,,,, your nips even look a bit excited to be near him,,,, lol...
Just note that last part was him talking about the picture. And my nips always look like that, although I'm always excited to be near Coach. So snap out of it brain be happy. We have a guy who loves us and we love him.
On a different note I was talking to this guy I met awhile ago. We never did anything, but he is very interesting. I told him I'm seeing someone and he said good for me, but he was still looking and time was running out. He's 30 going on 31. I wanted to tell him what his exact problem is, but well no one really listens when you call them out on their shit. You'll recall I talked about him some time ago. He wants a boyfriend, but he is very very picky. I understand that as guys we do need to be physically excited with our partner, but there does need to be something there as well. With him he's looking for a lot of superficial stuff. For instance on all his profiles he says he wants a guy who his height/weight proportionate. Basically he's looking for a guy that is in the green range of the BMI. As we all know the BMI is not designed for guys who are muscular so basically he's looking for a twink. Yes he isn't looking for a twink. No he wants a muscular straight acting guy. Yes I hate the use of "straight acting" to describe a gay guy to. The only porn he will watch is where the top is straight and gay for pay. So basically next door studios stuff. All this because he doesn't like the gay community. He says that we are all douche bags. Well he said most gay guys are douche bags, but you get my point. So you can see how it would be hard to find someone that fits his description. And if you look at his picture he looks like a stereotypical gay guy. The irony of it all. So I said you should open up your age range a bit. Well he's done that. I was going to say more, but figured he's at the age where if he hasn't figured it out he will when it's too late and nothing I say is going to help.
I'll admit I'm less on the picky side and well it got me a guy. Yes I'm clearly physically attracted to Coach. He is basically my perfect guy physically. Then I got to get closer to him emotionally and that's what has allowed me to become his encourager. He wants to get bigger and I'm not going to stop him. I have a wide range of what I'm attracted to physically. If Coach wanted to slim down then go for it. He's still the same man on the inside just with a smaller outside. If he wants to get bigger then that's just more to love. If he wants to get hairy then yay I get a pelt to pet. If he wants to shave then that just means I can lick him all over with less hair in my mouth. When we aren't willing to be flexible in what we like physically we miss out on something big. There are nice guys around here who he will never give a chance because his physical standards are so high and he's looking for a guy emotionally who will never want a relationship other than as a fuck buddy.

Videos

Finally got around to posting this weeks videos. Labor day through me off plus been busy with Coach and allergies. Hey better late than never. The first video is for fans of hairy guys with a bit of a muscular build. It stars Mike Vespa and another hairy dude. I'm sure they say the name, but I'm too impatient to sit through that beginning part. It's pretty action packed once it gets started which is of course awesome. Next up is Michaelm677. I found this video around the time me and Coach were first kinda going out. He reminded me of Michael in the sense that both are big guys (Coach has more definition) and that they both like to be called...wait for it.... Coach. This is one of his videos where he his cum hits his face. He has a few videos like this. Third up is Gus Mattox and Bruce Beckham. I can say honestly Gus is not my favorite porn star, but I do like the kinda Daddy/Son dynamic of this scene. And Bruce is pretty hot. Next is kinda a special request. I was asked to find a scene with a specific porn star and most of his work is with Smoking Hunks. I just so happened to find him in a scene yesterday, but for the life of me I can not remember his name. I can tell you everyone else in this scene, Nick Harmon (cop), Jack Austin (cop with less hair), Wayne (older guy in tank), and then this guy. It's killing me. Anyway it's a foursome scene. Enjoy. Last up is Paul Carrigan in the alley. Basically it's "amateur" porn. Paul agreed to fuck on camera for money and all three guys do get off. Porn is weird.

Ugh....why today?

Today I was suppose to head over to Coach's place to have tacos and have a little fun, but I just couldn't make it. I think I'm having a major allergy attack or a cold. Hoping it's just allergies so I can go visit him on Friday. Plus it was senior day and I knew that I was going to have some shipments coming in. Luckily (or unluckily) it wasn't as busy as I thought it was going to be. With that being said this will be a short blog post. I'm going to go take a nap after this. I have Coach's shirt he left with me to sleep with so I'll be sleeping better.
Oh before I forget here are Coach's stats so far:
Currently around 186lb
16" biceps
belly has grown from 38" to 46"
Lifting stats:
Working bench press for reps 200-215lbs
Barbell curl 85lbs-95lbs
Shrugs 250lbs-260lbs
Overhead barbell shoulder press 110lbs-115lbs
As he lifts and as I'm there to measure we'll have more complete stats.
One thing I wanted to mention before signing off is that I've noticed I'm less interested in porn. This is actually a big deal from me. Most of my blog is porn related as we all know. I'm not saying that my lack of desire in porn is going to change this blog, but just pointing it out. I think the reason is that I'm with Coach. Not just that I'm with him, but that he's ok with me watching porn. I think it's like what Sheldon's mom said on the big bang theory. If you tell a guy not to do something that's all he wants to do. That's actually kinda how my last relationships went. I didn't want to watch porn with my first boyfriend and at some point it felt like I wasn't allowed to watch it so I did anyway. With my recent ex we use to watch porn together, but when I found he wasn't really interested it felt like I shouldn't be interested as well and thus I watched porn. Fun thing I learned about myself today.
Bet you can't guess who sent me this video and who he's talking about. Why yes Coach and why yes he was talking about me. I do love this song. You will be my music has such a heavy meaning. Music is a beautiful form of expression. It's something that only humans move to. It brings out so many feelings. Well the feeling I get whenever Coach sends me something like this is love. I love that man.