Videos

Not to pat myself on the back, but I think this is one of my better video postings this week. Not just because only 1 video was deleted this week. It's just the quality of videos is better. First up is Rogan from Men at play. That man fills out a suit nicely, but should only wear his birthday suit for sure. Just yummy all over. Next up is Mitch Vaughn fucking Dean Monroe. Apparently it's the 2nd part of a movie called Domination 101. Dean topped Mitch in the first scene and now they are switching. Honestly I do like Mitch as a top. He just screams top to me, but it is nice to know he knows how to bottom which just makes for a hotter top. Plus the guy can put eyes out with his cumshots. This third video is kinda funny. You have this hot muscular guy who hits on this "nerd" in the bathroom. First off I don't know why pornos try to make guys into nerds that aren't. The guy is in shape and just doesn't look like pretending to be timid. And on top of that he's the top. It's a hot scene, but that bugged me to no end. Then it's Randy Jones a.k.a. Win Diezel (think I wrote that right) and Julian Rios (wait is that him? I'm sucking at names today). It's a crappy set up, but hot fuck. I had a thing for Randy a.k.a. Win then he got too meh for me. Same with Julian. This was one of my favorite scenes of the two. Last up is Bronson Gates and Marc Angelo. If you like bears then you will not want to miss this. I mean wow. Just watch it is all I can say.

Such thing as cloud 11?

Saying I'm on cloud 9 doesn't seem like it really does me justice. Yesterday was my date with Coach and it was amazing. Just flat out amazing. For so many reasons. Hmm where to start. Oh I know with dinner and his cats.

So the picture to the left is a picture of one of Coach's cats. His name is Tiger. There is also Brenden and Pumpkin. Hmm....should have grabbed a photo of them. I think Coach sent me a photo of them. Meh I'll look for them later and post them on Monday. Anyway Tiger is the oldest cat. Coach had made us Chicken, rice, and buttered corn (all good btw). Now whenever Coach sits down Tiger always gets in the opposite chair and sits at the table staring. He's done that ever since he was a kitten. Yes he does get some food here and there. Last time I was there we put some Roast Beef out for him and for some reason he got his head under the table cloth and was trying to get at it. He had never done that before. Anyway back to his cats. Brenden is the 2nd oldest and from time to time gets into fights with Tiger. Play fights of course. They actually got into a tussle before I left. I think Brenden likes me the most. I petted him during dinner and he would constantly want me to pet him longer. He kinda paws at you like, "come on pet me some more". He also snuggled next to me while me and Coach were watching Queer as Folk. To the point I had no clue he was right next to me until I went to pause it. Pumpkin is the youngest and he likes me. Not as much as Brenden, but he likes me. He actually reminds me of my old cat. Both were loud purrers and I loved to pet them. Takes everything in me to not just pick him up and hold him all the time. Tiger I think is still getting use to me. I think he's like any older sibling. We look after our parents and we look at every move. I think he's warming up to me, but I do have to prove myself and I'm willing to do that cause I love Coach and love his kids like they were my own :).

Now on to the fun stuff. I'm not saying that playing with the cats wasn't fun, but yeah more fun was to be had. We went into his gym and we were going to have a mini workout, but well that lasted 1 quick set. A lot of kissing and holding and a bit of Coach flogging went on. Then he put on his collar, we kissed some more, he did some squats holding me, and eventually went into the bedroom. Then came the best part of the night. He said I could enter him and I did. It wasn't a full fledged pounding or anything. Just me entering him and going in and out again before pulling out. What made it so great was for once my mind was quiet. You see when I top a guy for the first time I get very nervous. I'm thinking ok go slow, but not too slow. Hope he likes it, hope I'm not too big. And of course the loudest is DON'T CUM, DON'T CUM! I didn't have that with Coach. It was just so nature. Such a slow passionate entry. The entire time I was thinking I love this man and I want to make love to this man. I made sure that he was able to relax and in doing so I was able to relax. If I didn't cum the rest of the night I would have been happy with just that. It was an amazing gift from the man I love. It was just a great start. Now we did cum later on, but it didn't top that moment. It came close, but that moment of me being inside Coach and holding him was just perfect. So romantic. So perfect. Now that unloading was great too. The two times I've been with Coach at his place have felt like a complete release. It's like the first time you learn you can cum. That release of everything that is building up, but this was better. It's like I've stifled myself before and this time it was a FULL release. I haven't slept so good at night in a long time. I know our dates are just going to get better and better as time goes on.
Yet that wasn't the end to a perfect evening. Me and my ex had a great chat. He has come a long way in realizing that we can still be friends even if we aren't together. In fact he has some good news that he'll be telling me a little later on. It sounds like he's truly embraced being gay and is willing to put himself out there. And of course I will be there for him every step of the way. I love him. Not as a partner or a romantic interest, but as a friend. I want him to be happy like he wants me to be happy. We have finally torn down the walls that have built up between us and are able to grow and live and be happy. I'm finally truly happy again. I feel like I did coming out of the hospital after my depression attack. I feel like I know what the problem was and have dealt with it and lived. So with that being said I'm giving my ex a name (not his real name of course). So from now on my ex with be referred to as Ted. Least until he stops being a little like Ted from Queer as Folk.
Like I said. Can I be on Cloud 11. It seems like I can and am. 

Happy day

Before I get onto today's post, I just have some clarification on yesterday's post. The guy I was talking about is not a friend. If I said he was that was my bad. He ims me every now and again. I kinda just nod along don't really have much to say. The guy is all about images.  When I had a date with the first Tommy, I had friended him on facebook and that's how the guy knew I had a date with Tommy. I offered to add him and he wouldn't add me because he doesn't want anyone on there that will post anything gay. Basically he didn't want me going on about me being gay which I don't do anyway. That's about the time I stopped iming him and talking to him. He also goes to my gym. He imed me the yesterday because he had saw me there the other day. And as you can tell he clearly came up to me to at least say hi. Yeah he didn't. So no this guy isn't my friend. He has far too many issues and I have my own crap to deal with. Don't need someone that insecure and about appearances in my life.

Now onto the happy news. I really don't know where to start. Well I guess I won't say the thing I'm waiting to tell Coach. I want to tell him face to face first so that will wait until tomorrow. So I guess I'll start with the fact that I have a date with Coach tonight and can't wait. You can imagine why it makes me so happy to see my boyfriend. So happy that I'm glad I'm wearing a jock right now. We have a lovely evening planned. A great dinner, a trip to his home gym with a little role playing then cuddling up with QAF. Sadly I can't stay the night, but that will be coming soon. Especially after Coach and my Ex meet. Once my ex sees that Coach is a great guy and not out ot hurt me or keep me and my ex from being friends things will fall into place. That's one of the things I love about Coach. He's secure in himself and us that he's ok with me being friends with my ex and actually wants to start a friendship with him. Not a lot of guys would be willing to do that. Hell not a lot of guys would be ok with their guy being friends with anyone they've had sex with. That's actually one reason why I'm not friends with a guy in Texas. I helped him with a divorce and 3 failed gay relationships, but because his new guy (who he moved in with like a month after they met) couldn't understand that it drove a wedge. I wish them no ill will.
So back to me and Coach. I'm just flat out happy and trying to not rush through the day. I have a nice weekend ahead even with working on Saturday. Coach tonight, work then rest tomorrow, and Packers game with my Ex and pizza. I'm also setting up visiting a friend some time next week. I'm for sure feeling happy and it's a nice feeling.
Thanks Adam. Your opinion does mean a lot. I do plan on holding onto Coach and not letting go. I keep telling Coach I'm not trading an hour of "fun" for a lifetime of happiness. I've been searching for a good guy for over a year and I'm lucky enough to find one. I'm not (as RuPaul would say) going to fuck it up. Whenever I'm with him I always see this look he gives. It's not there for long, but it's there. This look of vulnerability. It happens typically after we have a good kiss or when I say I love you or just after we hold hands. It's a look that connects to my heart. It's the look that let's me know he's not going anywhere and I'm not going anywhere. Makes me feel loved and makes me love him all the more.