My first post

So basically I started this blog because quite honestly I have things I need to address that I can't exactly do where I am now. What I mean is I have thoughts that I can't really tell anyone. Yes I have a boyfriend I could tell, but honestly I kinda rather not. For example when I have a sex dream that doesn't involve him. Yeah he doesn't really need to know that stuff. Plus I've learned that if I don't express my thoughts in one way or another they come out in destructive ways. So basically this blog is to help to keep the edge off. It can be anything from omg I found this new porn star and he's super sexy to, I think I should tell my parents, but not really. I kinda got the idea from others blogs I've seen around. I have a lot of free time at work to surf the net so that leads me to look at a LOT of blogs. I'm honestly a very sexual guy and I know it. That's kinda one of my problems that I so don't want to tell the boyfriend about. I also have to jack off at least once a week. You know just me time, which I don't get to do since we now live together and I have a HUGE stash of porn. Me and my boyfriend have different taste in guys which can make it difficult to watch porn together, which we try to do every Saturday. Anyway sometimes I want to watch something that has older hairy guys going at it. He on the other hand likes younger smoother guys. Now we both agree that we LOVE muscle guys. Then again most gay guys do. I also like classic porn. You know from like the early 90's and 80's. He doesn't. Like I said it makes it hard sometimes. Plus we don't have sex as much as I'd like. The reason being he's older then me and he's kinda slowed down. Not to mention he is no where near as sexual as I am when he was my age. So kinda makes sense that as he gets older he's not so into it. Anyway my point being is that there are some days when I just want to talk about sex. Today is one of them. Tomorrow maybe not. Anyway like I said this blog will probably talk about a lot of things. Mostly things I can't tell the boyfriend or anyone else because I don't have the money for a therapist. Got to love america.